Paranoia; An RH. M Production

Saturday, June 30, 2007

today's search of the new blogskin has failed. i have wasted my whole day away researching the simpsons on the internet and putting songs in my phone.i have the opening themes of chobits and jigoku shoujo in my phone now! whoohoohoo!

but i'm thinking of adding the chobits theme song on my blog now.

anyway, the papers....i thought we'ld get to tt sooner or later. well.

not too bad.

i just added bling on my phone. it looks gay now. remind me to take it off before monday....wait. it's youth day, so there's a hol there. and i have no exams on tuesday....so it'ld have to be wednesday tt i would be going back to school.

shame. i miss him already.

but stop. does he even put you as part of his life?

riann, i dun wanna argue about this.

anyway, i've been reading a new manga called parfum extrait 0. it has fantastic graphics and somehow appeals to me more than the other mangas i read. it seems to agree with me somehow. too bad it is only a one off manga.

i think i should get back to othello and unseen poetry before i go insane first.

what a good idea. study group again perhaps?

yum... sanny came home and passed me some sweets to chew on. yum...apple flavoured.

i love sweet stuff. my birthday is coming up soon! yay!

let's make a list on the things i wish tt ppl would give me:

harry potter book 7
new glasses (mom's already gonna pay for this though , so maybe not.)
a cake in the shape of spongebob squarepants.
chocolate fruit cake.
tickets to the simpsons movie ( yj has already promised this, so this would be out too)
the elvenstar from lord of the rings
CSI season 6 dvd.
my own laptop ( well, i told my mom i wouldn't need this until i go to university, but i wouldn't mind getting it earlier. but i probably will get one when i get to uni, so forget it.)
a real cat, kitten preferably, but adult cats are okay.
a real fren in MI
reassurances tt indeed i am needed in this world
birthday presents (i dun care what it is! just give me one!)

hell, anything would do. just as long as i am pleasantly surprised by it.

i've been experiencing the desire to sleep lately. i dunno why. i haven't been doing anything particularly stressful or exhausting.

my eyes are exhausted. perhaps its because of me staring and playing on the computer. some ppl are right. i do need a social life.

surprisingly, for the past few days i have been dreaming of HIM again. not the current guy i'm crushing on. but HIM. what is going on? my subconcious brain must be trying to tell me something.

i so gotta find a way to sort out my problems.

anyway, i have also been experiencing panic attacks about me and my health. i have to cut down and start exercising already. i wanna lose weight for my health.

anyway, it's been a long day alone. i'll be taking a shower now. see you ppl soon! (probably two hours later when i'm bored.)

oh yeah, you would not believe what i found on vanessa's ( my classmate) blog . see this was at the beginning of school and i had just lost my pencilcase . i know, stupid of me. i just read this thing and the memories of tt day came back and i started laughing like a maniac just now. note : at tt time i didn't really like max .

vanessa's blog:

so this is what happ yesterday in class.

chumpa's all pissed that she lost her pencil box right
and then max is being all noble and wanting to help chumpa right.
but chump just aint in that i-need-help-so-bad mood
and then max goes all
maximillion (i'm serious, thats his name)- so where did you put your pencilbox?
chumpa- (annoyed) i really have no idea *stares into distance*
max$$$-okay you know what, i'm going to help you find it
chumpa- huh its okay lah
max X 1000000- no its okay i'll help
chumpa- but i don't need your help
max-i'm gonna help you find it if its the last thing i do
chumpa- buti don't WANT your help ( very aggitated)
max- but i already said i would! i'm gonna help!
chumpa- *stares at max right in the eye for about 300 seconds*
max- *hands up as if to surrender* ok fine! i won't help. geez relax.

HAHAHA it was the funniest thing ever

(end of extract)

was i tt grumpy at the beginning of school?

well...................

yes.

Thursday, June 28, 2007

my stomach is suffering from diarrhea again. i guess my chewing of ice isn't really helping the situation.

so far the exam papers have been slowly draining my power. it's even worse cause it's tt stupid time of the damn freaking month. ...and tt stupid stomachache that goes with it.

not cramps. stomachache.

i still got one more history paper and one more lit paper. tomorrow is the history paper.....

which reminds me. lately i have been thinking about my allies and who i can trust here. so far....none.i still dunno whether those i like are trustworthy and whether who is a good person or not.

i can't trust anyone anymore, can i?

i dunno whether i was to think about this problem to a great extent.....i dunno whether i like my allies, and sometimes i wonder if my enemies are tt bad.

Monday, June 25, 2007

ouch.....my arm hurts.....i just came back from study session at mel's house....we were revising for econs and chinese. max and i were arm wrestling. i lost. both times. my arm hurts....never fight with a rugby player....

then i decided to come home and wrestle with my cousin. i won twice, lost once. but my writing hand is exhausted now...and so is my arm......will be using ice packs and stuff to get it to wake up.........speak to me arm! i need you for econs tomorrow!!!

by the way....KELLY CLARKSON'S NEWEST CD IS OUT!!!!!! WHOOHOO!!!!!!!!!i went to listen to it.....and it rocks!!!! i'll get it as soon as i get the money....my birthday is a month and a day away..... i wanna get it...... anyway, will talk tomorrow, once i get my arm back to it's real strength....til then, here's kelly clarkson with her new single," never again"..............

Sunday, June 24, 2007

whoohoo!!! my favourite segment of david letterman's "great moments in presidential history."

Thursday, June 21, 2007

today was hilarious!

well, as you ppl might know, i was supposed to have a mugging session with max, mel, and razia .meeting at 10 in the morning is no mean feat, considering i hate sleeping for 7 hours only.

anyway, i was slightly worried about max. see he messaged me yseterday telling me abt some probs...anyway, i was hoping to see if he was still alive or not.

past ten , mel and rara are here. where's max? the question we were all asking ourselves. so we did MI work. still no sign...after 45 mins, we gave up and proceeded to library...

a few mins later, being still worried, we decide , at a last resort, to call max's home.

this is rather scary as a) i do not like calling ppl , b)i'm afraid of parents c) what if he's not at home?

i dial the no, press call and let it ring. .a pleasant sounding lady answered the phone, probably max's mum.

"max is still sleeping, and i can't get him to wake! he's not moving!"

laughs galore! and anyway, we get max on the phone. being groggy and tired he sounded like a five year old . after hearing us laugh at him, he said," oh i'm late."

there went me," the sun was up there like ten hours ago!"

max on the phone to razia," i hear champa in the background, blah blah blah."

anyway, we decide to pick him up. maxilla is very funny when disorientated and sleepy. he can call you and say," my jeans are wet."he can also call and say," hey i took the wrong train going towards the wrong side, so i'll be later than i thought."

laughter galore ,double feature.

anyway, after finally picking him up, we get lunch. it was great talking to him again ( if anyone says this out loud to him , i'll come after you with a knife!"

mel left later cause she had to pick up her gym bag. so max , razia and i stayed back to study. met syaf there (hi dear!) and i went to play revive the ipod with maxilla. went to pick up batteries for max later.talked about bush, the cold war, ww2 , osama ....history stuff.i looked through max's phone and he looked through mine. heh, can u believe he asked me about marco's photo? i didn;t say anything though....max has loads of photos inside his phone....viewing it was fun.

anyway, after the study session, i went for tuition. i think i improved on econs now, but i realised tt there is a whole chapter tt i missed out....gods above....i like econs better now, but does it always have to be soooo....think out of the box kinda thing?

so now i'm home, blogging about it. i plan to shower after this, charge my hp and ipod and go to sleep. tomorrow's another day...cause tomorrow's ms alicia ng's lit lesson! i'll see a2 tomorrow....and we can all have fun again! max is back , so let the bullshit begin!

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

have a bit of diarrhoea today. hot soup seems to have made it better though...

did a bit of econs . right now on a kinda break. leaving at five or faster cause i wanna get back to econs. i never knew how demand, supply and price equilibrium could be so fascinating.

well, it is. i think i can understand why ms low likes it. by why does it have to do with money? i prefer lit and history better cause they almost tell stories...guess i dream and think too much.

hm....watching a bit of teen titans now.why am i not a kid? robin is cute, cyborg is cool , beast boy is just plain hilarious , raven's my fav character and starfire is so enthusiastic!

anyway, i dun wanna be a happy kid like starfire. i'ld rather be like raven, smart and able to use magic against others. rather gloomy, perhaps, but truly sacarstic.

study group with mel, razia and maxilla has been postponed to tomorrow. this explains why i'm here being bored rather than studying lit with them . let us all thank the french king, maxilla for this. he messed up the time differences. well, tt's him alright. biggest idiot ever.

i wonder what happens when u add coke to chinese tea.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

haha!!

played my hand out today making fun of maxilla on msn.

haha!!!

well, it was his fault first!

haha!!i know it's very mean, but i'm so proud of myself...!

Monday, June 18, 2007

never celebrate some 80 year old lady's birthday again. period.

see , there are reasons why i wanna die at 34. i do not wish to be so weary of the world already.

loads of ppl are already scolding me for thinking this way.the most recent one , maxilla. here's part of our convo:

*}{Rhiannon Merl: haha....
*}{Rhiannon Merl: you are telling this to the kid who has decided to die by 34........
Maxime: Chumps
Maxime: I know
Maxime: that you do not want to die at 34
*}{Rhiannon Merl: well.....
*}{Rhiannon Merl: actually i do.
Maxime: I know that it's only a face
Maxime: no you don't
Maxime: don't lie to yourself!
*}{Rhiannon Merl: okay , let's not argue abt tt fact.
Maxime: Just enjoy yuor life Chumps
Maxime: leave the past behind
Maxime: to point carrying it with you
Maxime: it has nothing to do with you
Maxime: Do not hate people!
Maxime: why hate when life is so short?
Maxime: when in that short moment of hating someone, you could do smoething else
*}{Rhiannon Merl: erm...dude, i can't act like a normal human, let alone have time to hate.......
Maxime: Chumps
Maxime: you are normal

yeah right. normally stupid and weird.

i mean, why bother living ? you can be replaced, the world doesn't stop revolving when u die.

why is it tt ppl want to live?

by this u can so totally tell i have no emotions. maxilla says tt i'm like a rock , but also said tt i do have emotions. i just hide them.

ppl celebrate life more than death. tt can be seen from the birthdays yesterday at 8th degree. why not celebrate death? don't make it a funeral for all. make it fun.

when i die, i know i want a celebration rather than a funeral. stop crying over me and get over it. there are more moments tt are worth living for.

max nearly got everything about me correct in the convo. this is rather scary.

gotta act up.

i'm not a drama student for nothing.i'm good at hiding stuff.

i was reading the comic For better or for worse . it was a rather sweet situation. the guy anthony looks so handsome now. tt's the look of my dream guy.....surprisingly , though, the guy i like now is totally not like him, or the type i used to like.......what's wrong with me?

Saturday, June 16, 2007

payback is a bitch, payback is a bitch......okay i got to stop now.

anyway, today was rather uneventful and dull.i have tt song from tt video stuck in my head, i made baked potatoes tt didn't exactly resemble those on tv, but still tasty. to me tt is.

i finally got a good photo of myself tt is both recent and good looking!( finally!)
well, i did a bit of tweaking with the tone and stuff, but other than tt, it looks fine.

did history today,both joy tan's and benny lim's. now tt i think abt it, i dunno when benny lim's lesson is going to start....is it the 18th or 19th?

now tt i think about it, do i have allies with me? i'm inclined to believe i do. but hey, i might scare them off.

bwahahahahahaha!!!!

whoohoo!!! the mad and bored ha thuc champa, aka rhiannonmerlin is back!!!!!

Friday, June 15, 2007

i was feeling bothered about something so being a person who would take any excuse to be online, i abandoned economics and went to youtube to watch scrubs. it cheered me up and i am here to announce tt if your funny bone needs fixing, watch scrubs, especially the favourite parts of season five which unfortunately made me cry cause it was too funny!!!!especially the pumpkin/ son segment. laughs galore!

this one's hilarious too......janitor is one of my favourite characters on Scrubs.

Thursday, June 14, 2007

yesterday's episode of hell girl was fascinating. a girl, who wanted revenge for her father who was killed by his blackmailer. the blackmailer was using the girl to find the jigoku shoujo but in the end, the girl used jigoku shoujo against her and killed the blackmailer....the girl inheirited every thing the blackmailer owned , including a luxurious condominium... but it was the last wordof the character that was chilling.

as she viwed the mark on her chest that meant that she was to go to hell when she died, the girl saw the blackmailer's face in her reflection .the blackmailer stated simply that life is a game , there is no right or wrong and whoever can enjoy it until they die is a winner. interestingly, this was what the blackmailer said (before she died) when she was trying to justify her actions to the girl.the girl then smiled evily to herself and said," she is right, life is a game, i shall enjoy it to its fullest."

at that moment, i had no idea whether to feel pity or disgust for the girl.

she had become the person she had despised and was planning to use others the way her blackmailer did to her.

then again, don't we see this in people's lives?

some may say, "oh i'll never do that!"but then again, we are humans. when we wish , so heartily to not become someone else, in the end, it doesn't matter , cause we are all alike.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

went to school today to accompany melinda for math consultation. in the end, we did self study ( her with economics, me with lit) , which had nothing to do with math.

we did a bit of discussing about shanghai . looks like we found out some stuff.

ying jie once said that she didn't want to take history cause it was dealing a lot on politics and she hated politics.interestingly, now i actually agree.i hate this . i'll suck if i were to be a diplomat in the United Nations. my goals keep changing too. one day i wanna write, the next to be a politician to change the world, the day after to just be famous, the day after that to be a private person.

i feel like everything about me is wrong. my existence , myself , my history.

beginning to hate myself again.

each day i ask , why am i not more alert, more brave, more polite , more decent looking, more intelligent, more caring ?

instead, i see just ........an empty shell.

from what i hear, i missed a lot for sel camp. seems like the cracks i have feared would appear has finally shown itself .wonder what happens when external events occur to aggravate the lines?

should i be in the sidelines , or fight readily?

then again, i can't even figure out myself, let alone help my class....

grave , am i ? i should be like all the other teens, writing on their boyfriends, their events, their parties, their frens , their celebrity obsessions and others.

meet the ever so happy teenager , ha thuc champa. aka chumps.

by the way, i have been refering to myself as chumps now , even when thinking stuff like ,"why is this happening to chumps and not ___________?" (imagination , use it to fill in the blanks.)

will kill max. but then again,i just realized how much someone can influence your life and behaviour.

was reading the last vol of fruit basket today, which delved into tt topic.

seems like every piece of reading material i have been reading so far has been scrutinized, analyzed , re read , thought through to the maximum . lit huh?i've been analyzing all characters tt go through my life so far.

seems like lit's taking over me too.reminder, must look through university courses to determine whether this skill , and others of course , can be used to determine my future happiness and job.

perhaps i should continue with literature and write scripts questioning people and historical figures as well. show things as how they might have seen it.

then again, perhaps i should just be a good for nth useless bum.i seem to have a talent for it nowadays.

anyway, i got quoted today by my fren viha! she actually said tt my mindless driftings actually made sense. will write more mindless driftings, put them under <"human study"> and send it to nus.

only kidding.but i will write it here on my blog.this is not only a blog. it's the record of how a teenager,eg. me views life and her thoughts. perhaps when i become older and start my own company and stuff, i'll come across this thing and read it all over again. laughing over my youth , crying over pain , and perhaps feel hope tt there is more to come.

by the way, in case tt ever happens, can i ask my future self if she still feels tt the human race is doomed with the things we do?

might never be able to see this again. but...can i ?

Monday, June 11, 2007

everytime i hear this song, i always feel like crying. have it on my blog now ,so u ppl can at least slightly understand how i feel.

Loop

Sakamato Maaya

Nee kono machi ga yuuyami ni somaru toki wa
sekai no doko ka de asahi ga sasu
kimi no te no naka sono hana ga kareru toki wa
chiisana tane wo otosu darou
fumikatamerareta tsuchi wo "michi" da to yobu no naraba
me wo tojirukoto de mo "ai" kana

Kono hoshi ga taira nara futari deaetenakatta
otagai wo toozakeru you ni hashitteita
Speed wo yurumezu ni ima wa donna ni hanarete mo
meguru kiseki no tochuu ni mata mukaiau no darou

Nee kono machi wo yuuyami ga sariyuku toki ni
kono namida tsuretette
katari kakete kuru moji wo "Shousetsu" to yobu no nara
todokanai kotoba wa "Yume" kana

Yodominaku nagareteku kawa ni ukabeta ki no ha de
umi wo mezashiteku no ni natte ame de orou
tooi kimi ni chikaku de ochita tane wo sodate you
chigau basho de kimi ga kizuite kureru to iinda kedo

Kono hoshi ga taemanaku mawari tsuzuketeiru kara
chiisaku aketa mado no soto keshiki wo kae
watashi no aishita hana sotto mebaeru kisetsu de
meguru kiseki no sono hate mata mukaiau no darou

mukaiau no darou

Loop - Translation

Hey, while this town is covered by twilight,
The morning sun is shining down somewhere else in this world.
As that flower withers away in your hand,
A little seed probably falls into the ground somewhere.

If the trodden soil is called a path,
Then is shutting my eyes love?

If our star was flat, the two of us wouldn't have met.
We were running without slowing down,
As if from each other. No matter how far apart we are now,
We will surely face each other again in this revolving miracle.

Hey, when the twilight passes from this town,
Take my tears away too.

If a story of words is called a novel,
Then are these words that can't reach you my dream?

Carried by fallen leaves floating in the river that flows without faltering,
Became clouds with the sea and fell with the rain,
I will raise this seed that fell near the distant you.
If only you would notice me from your distant location.

Because our star revolves without stopping,
The scenery outside the tiny opened window changes,
And the flower I loved, we will surely face each other again,
In this revolving miracle, in this sprouting season,
We will surely face each other again.
Round and round I go,
Round and round around you.

i keep having desires to sleep lately.

i dunno why.

perhaps it's all that coke i'm drinking.

i dun think i'll be hanging on to your every word now, by the way.i'm an independant kid. i can find my way myself.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

1) public enemy of primary school Wong Chun has decided to call himself Alan Wong. he has also asked for friend's request on facebook. until now, i'm still shaking in my knees when i remember him. so i haven't responded.

2) class reunion thing? not too good. i got to see angeline though. miss her loads . we talked quite a lot. but then again, i dun wanna go to any more reunions.
for some reason, chungyin doesn't like me, even though i dunno what i did to him in primary school.and there's so much i'ld rather not go through , thank you very much.

3)i finally realized that the old guy i used to have feelings for? all gone. kaput.ain't it great? feel kinda weird, but free.this has not happened before , but then again, thank you!

4)unfortunately, the liking for the new guy is increasing. Damnit.

5)my paranoia is increasing.just yesterday i had the feeling tt everyone was ignoring me. i dunno, feel kinda clingy. i have very low self esteem and it takes quite a lot to make me let go and feel that people like me out there. i need loads of praise from people to make me feel happy. gotta stop that.

6)i'm beginning to believe that i'm a really selfish girl. to me, it's all about me huh? i dun want that to happen.

7)i'm also beginning to feel fat , lousy and lonely too.

i'm hating myself again.

Thursday, June 07, 2007

so much goes on in people's lives so much material so much weariness so much hurt so many hurt feelings so many broken souls so much happiness so much fakeness so many obligations so many wants so many temptations so many consequences so many memories so many nightmares so much to live for so much to die for

this is not a poem. this is mental driftings that pass through my mind as i read blogs and websites

i'm having second thoughts about the reunion i am to attend today. my obligations to wan yi must be fulfilled. however , i don't know if i wanna see them.

i am such a lousy friend , lousy daughter , lousy human being .

i feel no pity for the people who work outside. i see no point in being interested in class matters and friend matters . i have no emotions for my family members.i feel no pity for the human race.

it's all about me.

a foolish , selfish human who only cares about herself.

during the teenage years, the human mind overgoes a change where the brain re arranges itself and somehow one part of the brain is moved so that the person thinks tt he or she is invincible.

i hate myself for that. stupid bitter humanistic gene.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

twas a nice afternoon when champa stepped out of her house . she then started melting as the sun hit her and screamed bloody murder.

SIGH.

lovely day, hateful weather. why can't it rain?

missing him more and more. i can't see him now. but i still miss you everyday.

i shouldn't be though. i was supposed to give up on you.

so why can't i?

you make me laugh and stuff. you notice things that people are not supposed to notice.your smile and presence is essential in a way to make me go on.

but then again....forget it rhiannon

riann,i can't forget him.

interesting. you can forget about daily necessities, but not him.

shut up.

you should do the same, mistress.

riann, my spirit guide, is right. i must be sensible and forget about him. his personality alone lets him have loads of friends.....why should i be different?

he would never see me more than a friend . tt i can gurantee.how can he like me?

O Pitiful shadow cloaked in darkness.Thy actions cause men pain and suffering. Thy hollow soul drowns in thy sins. Would you like to see what death is like?

i've been watching hell girl. a nice show.a show about ppl sending others to hell by means of a website Jigoku Tsūshin.

how i wish i can do the same...but then again, i don't wanna be sent to hell.

i know a few tt i do wanna send though......

Mistress....remember , no killing...
i know that, riann, now go to sleep!

you do realize that he's not coming online no matter how much u wish for it.....
i'm hungry, cranky and lonely. i'm missing cookies . food's not done. i'll miss him my own way ,thank you.so if i stare at the thing every few minutes to see if he's online, it's my way of coping, thank you very much.
you're very lame, mistress.
thank you. i do what i can.

Monday, June 04, 2007

200th post !!!!

thank you , thank you , thank you....roses will not do...but your applause keeps me going....

anyway , got dragged out to do shopping today with cousins. there are reasons why you should never shop with girls. but there are reasons why you should shop with my cousins. we all ended up buying a lot of stuff. i only bought one dress though.

on the way there , though , i was up against something i've never expected....seeing them again. ppl i never wanted to see. secondary school ex classmates.

i don't like them.

cause they contributed to the (nearly) worst four years of my life.
traumatizing me mentally. what are you ppl?

why do ppl say that secondary school years are the best?
please. it's a mere excuse to escape from their sorry realities.
they think that their colleagues or frens are bitchy and wish to return back to school where all was ," sugar , spice and everything nice."

excusez moi. firstly , bitchy colleagues were developed from these secondary schools.

secondly, i hate everything nice.

hateyouhateyouhateyouhateyou.

fought fun wars yesterday and today with the King of France (maxilla) , and the PM of Great Britain Lord Wellesly (Dinesh) respectively.honestly , we should all get together to kill each other.it's so much fun.My post as Empress Mage of Vietnam is fun, though i never wanted to be allied with Vietnam in the first place.i wanted hong kong. the i remembered hong kong was a colony of Britain.i gave up on that idea.

haha!!!!wonder what would happen if i brought in the indian queen , (prerna) to fight with me.....maybe our side will win.

then again....i'll win this on my own and bring greater glory.....
this will be fun...perhaps this would enhance my study of human nature....

Sunday, June 03, 2007

when you have been on a plane for five hours in the morning and have slept on that damn place of four of those hours( or maybe less, cause i know i was talking to dinesh for quite awhile and i ate those darn dry biscuits,so that should have at least taken an hour).
you get more than sleepy. you get darn cranky.

that was me yesterday night.meet the all new champa, crankiness included.
when i get in that mode pls slap me.

phots of nice views from shanghai!!

this is my ally dinesh by the way. listening to his emo music....hahaha!first alliance between the brit and the viet.....

i'm still thinking about the battles we fought in shanghai.was it worth it?still thinking it was a waste of time....but like i said in the last post,some wars are necessary ....

what did we gain in all this madness? the knowledege that there are immature people in this world? the fact that the faith of the human heart is so shakable? it still amazes me that people actually take in second hand infomation about places just as easily as that...the failures of the human.

but then again, my name is Ha Thuc Champa. Alter Ego: Rhiannon Merlin , Empress Mage , Dark Lord ,Head of Lalaland Corp. ,daughter to Lord Vader himself. i will not let this get in my way of my plans . Operation Angels to Devils will continue.my study of the human nature will not be deterred.

i give u my word that though i hate wars, this will not be the last of them. the wars that humans concoct shall always be there. the fact that their eventual plan to destroy each other is well underway shall contribute to this war.

and i shall be there to observe and laugh about it all.

Saturday, June 02, 2007

sleepy.....

just came back from shanghai...how was it? well, let's just say i learnt a lot about human nature in shanghai. fights have occurred , cold wars conducted , alliances were made and loads of shit.

crap.
sigh...can i ask myself how did i get myself in this situation?

tripped over loads in shanghai, learnt about economics in china, what gdp was and others. talked and got to know more frens. dinesh is a great guy by the way, nice kid to talk to.and for that matter , debate with. arguing is as simple between us as having a meal. come to think of it, we fought during meals.poor teachers and students stared as we both argued . hahahahaha!!!entertainment galore!

but then...it led to strategies and others being formed too.fake smiles, sacarsm,backstabbing... like dinesh said, it was a bloody war....he says we've won though. but as i sat there talking , i asked myself," what did we win?"

war is done due to neccessity and consequences.

why is it that humans have to get an impression of people through words?

and for that matter....

why can't we all get to know each other through observing and talking to ppl?

i already lost thread of that war. i don't really care though. i never wanted it in the first place.

stoning now....sigh.

my phone nearly scared me half to death yesterday. see , my water bottle was leaking water in my bag and my phone was in there too....a bit of malfunctioning occurred but it's okay now....I THINK. it's working now....

okay. update's given. photos will be uploaded in the next post or subsequent others!

WHEE!!!!

THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT . WE HOPE TO SEE YOU AGAIN SOON.