Paranoia; An RH. M Production

Saturday, July 21, 2007

SPECTACULAR SPECTACULAR!!!!! WHOOHOOHOO!!!! I LOVE MOULIN ROUGE!!!!!

can we say that diamonds are a girl's best fren? not really...but i do admire nicole kidman...now she's a good singer.

Friday, July 20, 2007

SUM 41 LYRICS

"Over My Head (Better Off Dead)"

What happened to you
You've played the victim for so long now in this game
What I thought was true
Is made of fiction and I'm following the same

But if I try to make sense of this mess I'm in
I'm not sure where I should begin
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin'

[Chorus:]
Now I'm in over my head
with something I said
Completely misread
I'm better off dead
And now I can see
How fake you can be
This hypocrisy is beginning to get to me

It's none of my concern
Don't look to me because I don't believe in fame
I guess you never heard
I've met our makers they don't even know your name

But if I had to say goodbye to leave this hell
I'd say my time has served me well
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin'

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
This came long before
Those who suffer more
I'm too awake for this to be a nightmare

What's with my disgrace
I lost the human race
No one plans for it to blow up in their face

Who said it was easy to put back all these pieces
Who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces

[Chorus]

Over my head
Better off dead

Over my head
Better off dead

ALRIGHT!

this is how i feel. i feel so alone , even when i'm in a crowd. for the past few days, i've been feeling ignored, alone , isolated.....they all mean the same i guess, bu they feel oh so different to me. guess it's just the idiocy one would feel .i miss him , i deny it in his face.

by the way, watched king lear yesterday. it was quite good , but i fell asleep halfway through part two of the play. that means i only watched three quarters of the play.sigh. but so far , quite good.

Artist: Leroy
Song: Good Time

Rollercoasters
Holy roller
I got shot down
In Southern California

All along you never loved me, yeah
Till the day that you shut me off
And now that it's over
I hope that you've found what you're after, yeah

Are you having a good time
With your friends and your French wine?
So now I'm gonna warn ya
That there's only so much I can owe
Are you having a good time?
Yeah yeah yeah

Aahahooooo

You're like a movie star, yes
Driving in your fancy car
And there ain't nothing I can do about it
Spending money never mattered, no
Cos always daddy paid the damage, yeah
But now that you're living on the hills
I hope that you're social life doesn't get ya killed, aoohhhhhh

Are you having a good time
With your friends and your French wine?
So now I'm gonna warn ya
That there's only so much I can owe
Are you having a good time?
Yeah yeah yeah

Rollercoasters
Holy roller
I got shot down
In Southern California

All along you never loved me, yeah
Till the day that you shut me off
And now that it's over
I hope that you've found what you're after, now

Are you having a good time
With your friends and your French wine?
So now I'm gonna warn ya
That there's only so much I can owe, yeah
Are you having a good time?
Yeah yeah yeah

And it ain't easy being on top, no no
And it ain't easy being on top, no no
(Ain't easy living in the hills, yeah)
And it ain't easy being on top, no no
(And you're up with the stars)
And it ain't easy being on top, no no
(With higher society)
And it ain't easy being on top, no no
(You're on top of the world, yeah)

okay, i gotta go fow now, i'm in school to do the econs presentation. i feel like lunch.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

my heart hurts when i think of him.
my brain is not being rational.
i keep lingering near him.
i am such a sucker.

is my brain making my heart do this? yes it is.
why is it doing this?
probably cause my brain has an attachment to him.

i can't help but smile when i look at him.
and laugh when i'm with him.
his smile dazzles me and makes me feel really happy inside....

rhiannonmerlin, falling for a guy?
and this badly?

something is wrong.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

there i was , walking to class for irp , being kinda late so i didn't join the class for assembly.

out came a small muffin.....less raised , but still undeniably a muffin....

champa laughs her way back to class, where she proceeds to continue laughing at the muffin, aka maxilla.

muffin gets revenge when he talks about harry potter being satanic. i brought a copy of it with me and placed it on my table i whack him with the book, in all it's hardcover , american green glory.

he proceeds to use his cross pendant to "exorcise" my book.

later....in sea history

mr benny lim starts to go on about how the colonists claimed their countries....being the idiot tt he is, he uses...surprise surprise....vietnam and france....

france , it turns out overtook vietnam in three stages....

three stages...three parts ..... how stupid can they get?

maxilla had to establish his superiority by messaging me and telling me tt france rules.

hello, i happen to like tt country...pls dun make me hate it.

anyway the guy asks me why am i not serving my master....will kill him.

Monday, July 09, 2007

quite a lot has happened in the past few days.

firstly i got invited to watch the ndp preview show!whoohoo!!! fireworks were nice, 3d display show was fab , and performances....well, could use a bit of improvement....but opera ppl and the bangra ppl were great!

had breakfast at burger king today...never knew there were such things as morning breakfast at bk.....melvin , fiona , her fren liwen and some others were there as well. thanks to them, i'm hooked on the song "umbrella"...can't help but sing the chorus...

melvin got himself stuck in the handicapped toilet today...it was quite hilarious...i ventured out of gp class to get a drink of water before the gp teacher came...as i did , pounding could be heard from the said toilet......after asking if there was any one inside and hearing melvin scream and pound the door, i went to tell the om about the sit....everyone was laughing... even the om....we had to get a contractor to rescue the dude. max and i went there and we laughed at the guy....it was hysterical....haha!!!

oh yeah! i signed up for this basic military course... on wed i get to go to pulau tekong....will be quite fun...laurent and max signed up as well, so only three of us are going...this would be fun....wonder what they would be going to teach us.

we got two new teachers, gp and math. and we had to do the ever so corny introduction
( who are we? what do u aspire to do? ) geran stood up and said tt he wanted to be a drug lord.

erm....what????

anyway, got to see him today....rather stupid of me.i kinda missed him.

and my papers...

well, i dun wanna talk about it til i get something definitive.

by the way , i got a new theme for my phone! tsubasa!!! whoohoo!!! looking for more nice ones!

tt's all for today!!

will be having another good day tomorrow!i hope...

Friday, July 06, 2007

i forgave the idiot for standing me up. he's a bit depressed cause of something happening so i forgae him. anyway, if i lose him as a fren....well, i would wish him the best of luck in whatever he does....but will miss him terribly...( u didn't hear tt , get it!)

anyway, i was supposed to blog yesterday....but gwen was in a bit of a pms mood and chased me off the com.....i didn't do anything so it was kind of a shock to see her chasing me off. watched 200 pounds beauty yesterday....i was touced at the last part...i cried a bit at the end...(once again , you did not see tt).

today was hilarious. my cousin vanessa locked herself inside the room and could get out....we called everyone from uncle and auntie to the neighbours next door. in the end, we called the locksmith....i kept laughing at the stupidity of the situation. last year, casandra and i locked ourselves into the house and we couldn't get out cause we couldn't find the keys...our tuition teacher laughed at us when we caled him for help! i cannot believe the nerve of him!

found this quiz on melinda's blog. shall do it.

start time: 2319 hours
2 Name: Ha Thuc Champa
3. Nickname: Rhiannon Merlin / ginji / chumpa/ others.....
4. Astrology sign: Leo
5. Gender: xx chromosone running through my body....
6. Hair color: Shiny Black
7. Eye color: i wish it was black , but there is no such thing as tt , so i would have to say dark brown.
8. Height: 166 cm
9. Favorite color: Green and blue. the really icy version of them.
1o. Glasses: wearing them, but i lose them easily.
11. tattoos: i want one of vines of my arm.
12. Birthplace: Mt Elizabeth Hospital
13. Area code: NOT APPLICABLE TO THIS COUNTRY
14. TRUE friends : 7.

******HAVE YOU EVER*****
15. Cut your own hair? : yes...and i shaved part of my eyebrows too once.
16. Done something in the past and regretted?: yeah..volunteering to unclog the toilet.
17. Have you ever met someone you were not supposed to?: yes.
18. Skipped school? : once, but tt was to help my mom, who had backbone problems and couldn't walk.
19. Bungee jumped? :i wish i could. then again, maybe not.
2o. Punched someone? : yes , in the arm. max says i punch like a girl though.
21. Cheated on someone? : by the great goddess athena, i hope not.
22. Been arrested? : i'm proud to say , i have never been arrested....heheheheh....
23. Broken into someones house?: my own house.i broke into my own house cause i lost my keys...i ripped my school skirt!!!! everyone laughed at me!
24. Been to a funeral? : Yes. this year too.
25. Used a lighter? yeah....was trying to light a bunsen burner...should have used match sticks.

*****FAVORITE*****
26. Season: Autumn and Winter
27. Ice cream flavor: hm.....chocolate and fruit flavours
28. School Subject(s) : literature!!! and history too!
29. Candy:anything with sugar...except those sour sweets.
3o. Breakfast:anything except sandwiches.
31. Juice: watermelon
32. Book(s): you just asked the wrong person about this topic.
33. Movie(s): ditto above
34. Song(s): ditto above
35. Letter(s): S, C, R , E , A, M.
36. Favorite fast food restaurant: McDonald's/
37. Disney Princess: Not a princess , but i love Mulan the best.
38. TV station: Channel 5 , kids and arts central
39. Name for a son: no kids!!! i dun wanna have kids!
4o. Name for a daughter:or get married either....
*****DO YOU PREFER*****
41. Chocolate or Vanilla? : MMM....Chocolate
42. Alcoholic or not? : not.
43. Scary movies or comedies? : Comedies...as long as they can really make me laugh.
44. Short or long hair? : Long hair that bounces like the dude in shrek...
45. Croutons or bacon bits? : bacon bits!!!

******FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND******
46. Mexicans in general: tortillas.
47. School: blue.
48. Grass: green...
49. Cow: chewing the grass.
5o. Canada: my dream home...
51. Mouse: hamsters....
52. Hands: drawing them.
******THE PAST 3 DAYS, HAVE YOU******
53. Watched a movie? : yeah...200 pounds beauty
54. Talked on the phone?: yeah. my mom .
55. Cried? : yeah . the last scene of 200 pounds beauty.
56. Choked?: i pride myself tt i have never done so .
57. Drank a glass of water? : yeah...and a huge bottle of it too.
58. Done Drugs? : how could you accuse me of such a thing?
59. Read a book or magazine? : yeah!! i brought over a lot more too from my house!
6o. Watched TV? : yeah...be strong , geum soon
61. Looked in the mirror?: gods , i love myself....
62. Taken a shower? : if i dun , i stink.
63. Taken a picture? : photographer in the making here!
64. Listened to music? : my blog music....
65. Kissed someone? : my stuffed cats aaron and marisol.
66. Told someone you liked them: i wish i could...but i really can't.
67. End time: 2340 hours

by the way, max and rafe seem to be of the same mind lately....both keep asking me things of the future....to be honest...i tried to help them...but i can't see my own future myself....the path is so foggy...reminds me of the poem by robert frost" the road not taken."

max especially seems kinda lost...but both frens are questioning whether their next steps now would be beneficial to them in the future.

i wish i can help them. for now...all i can do is support them when they need me....

mom seems intent on me wearing a dress to attend aunt gillian's step daughter's wedding next year.

i already balked at the idea, but mom says i have to go...sigh...at least the dress isn't pink...i hope no one at school can see me...especially max...he'll torture the hell out of me....but then again, my daughter is cute in tt way...

( you did nt hear me say tt . really.)

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

i got stood up. again.

i refused to talk to the dude who stood me up.

well, i hope he remembers why i'm mad at him.

oh wait, he does.

let's hope he doesn't forget.

it's the last day of exams.....why am i not enjoying myself?

i should be happy. but i'm not. mel was scared today cause of me. i feel grave and solemn today.

i hope i never have to deal with this again.

changed my skin cause i felt lifeless. i like this thing. will keep this thing if it doesn't irk me by dinner time.

Monday, July 02, 2007

another quiz..... i'm an egoist! i'm an egoist!!!!whoohoohoo!!!!

1. First off, what's your name?
- rhiannonmerlin! not rhino!

2. Okay, but what does your best friend
call you?
- ginji , mikey and chumps.or chumpa.

3. Have you ever kissed someone with
braces?
- no...how is it like?

4. Who is the fourth received call on
your call log?
- Surprise! it's from maxilla aka le francaise de idiot!

5. If you could change your eye color
what would it be?
-green.

6. What is the wallpaper on your phone?
- the pic of the wolf demon which i have on my friendster as well.

7. How many pillows on your bed?
- 2 i always dump the other one though.

8. Who was the last text message you
sent to?
- razia and maxilla.

9. What color is your shirt right now?
- light blue.

10. What was the best thing that
happened to you last year?
- hm the new drama production. the new beginning rocks!

12. Who's the fourth person on your
contacts list?
- amal.

13. When was the last time you cried
from laughing so hard?
- just now. when i was watching tv.

14. What school did you attend in
secondary ?
- beatty secondary.

15. Do you have a crush on somebody?
- Yes. unfortunately.

16. Who was the last person that made
you laugh?
- my cousin casandra.

17. Do you like Quiznos?
- yeah...you learn so much about human nature this way.

18. Who do you make fun of the most?
- hehe....my sisters, maxilla, my cousins....others....

19. What's the longest you've ever
talked on the phone?
- 9 pm-11pm.

20. Do you think you've gotten
prettier/more handsome since grade
school?
- you are talking to the wrong person.

21. Have you seen your best friend cry?
- yeah. when she was disappointed about the exams.

23. Do you dance in the car?
- kinda... i sing too.

24. What do you think of hunting and
fishing?
- no way....both are boring.....and stupid.

25. Do you and your best friend act
alike?
- Yeah...like twins.

26. What is a noise that you cannot
stand?
- the reallllly sqeaky noises of the chairs and bottlecaps....urgh...can't stand them.

27. Does your mom vacuum early in the
morning, when you're sleeping?
-thank god no....

28. Are your parents in love?
- i dunno. i never know stuff like this.

29: At what age did you get your mp3
player/ipod?
- the age of 15 and 11 months.

30. What do you hear right now?
- the tv.

31. Would you rather sleep at a
friend's or have them over?
-sleepover at a fren's place.

32. When was the last time you wrote a
note, and to who?
- hm........paper msn count?

33. Has something happened where you
honestly thought you were gonna die?
- yeah. the time when i had tt virile fever at 39-40 degrees . gods ....i never ate tt spaghetti at the timeproperly!!!! argh!!!

35. What do you smell like right now?
- i dunno.

36. Do you have a hard time admitting
you're wrong?
- YES. doubley.

38. What shoes did you wear today?
- slippers. uhhuh...

39. What makes you lose your appetite?
- saliva on my uneaten food.... which isn't mine! and talk of saliva on the dinner table.

40. What color is your laundry basket?
- orange.

41. Does your mom make you wear a
winter coat?
- yes.....gods.....

42. Does it contain fur?
- fax furry stuff tt is not real fur!

43. Do you own any Hollister polos?
- no.

45. How do you like your steak?
- medium rare.

46. Who's in your house right now?
- three of my four cousins.

47. Where did you get your last bruise
from?
-from sitting down on the wrong spot....

48. Where did you last go out to eat?
- KFC...mini melts rocks.

50. Is there someone you can't stop
thinking about?
- yes. yes yes.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

i found this on friendster and posted this bulletin there.i thought it was kinda interesting...my answers that is.so since i am an egoist, i decided to post my answers here! yay! this is

THE FEAMLE SURVEY!

1. Do you ever lie about your age?
do u count the times i introduced
myself as an 81-year-old kid?

2. Do you prefer "sensitive boys" or
"tough guys"?
both.

3. Do you prefer blonde or dark haired
guys?
usually like dark haired guys. but i'm
perfectly fine with both.

4. Are you currently single?
hm...how should i put it? yes.

5. How many things in your past do you
regret?
too many. but now i'm resolving to
never regret anything.

6. Do you have a best friend?
yes. three good sisters.

7. What do you want to be when you
grow up?
a queen who dominates the world. if tt
doesn't work, i'll settle for
something in the theatre or something.

8. Who was the last person you hugged?
due to my fear of too much personal
contact, especially when affection is
due , i do not hug. but my stuffed cat
aaron is the last thing i have hugged.

9. Have you ever had your heart broken?
never. i haven't really gotten a bf
yet to fall in love with , let alone
get my heart broken.

10. Have you ever thought about having
plastic surgery?
yeah. then i realized that i can
dominate the world without looking
like adolf hitler or george bush.

11. Do you like your life?
perfectly fine life ,i have.

12. Do you shop at Hollister?
i dunno. i dun care.

13. Has one of your friends ever stolen
a boyfriend from you?
well, not really boyfriend. but they
have stolen a crush from me. i was in
primary school! i was innoncent and
sweet! i never knew how to steal! then
i got attacked! ( goes off to cry....)

14. Has one of your friends ever
stabbed you in the back?

i honestly hope not. but i think it
has happened before. without me
knowing.

16. Do you have more friends that are
girls or boys?
i think more girls. guys are afraid of
me.

17. How long have you had friendster?
2004 -present.

18. Have you ever cheated on someone?
no.loyal to the core.

19. Has anyone ever cheated on you?
this is something like the
backstabbing one right?

20. Have you ever slapped a boy in the
face?
i threw a packet of ice water at a
guy's pants.but never slapped a guy.

21. What is one of your biggest fears?
to lose my mind.

22. Have you ever skipped class?
pe. it doesn't count as a class.

23. Has anyone close to you ever passed
away?
no.they passed away , but they are not
close to me.

24. Have you ever cried yourself to
sleep?
yeah. not telling you why though.

25. Have you ever not been able to get
someone out of your head?
yes. it's like a stuck record or vcd
player.

26. Do you believe in the saying "once
a cheater, always a cheater"?
yeah. rather stupid i know, but i can
never get tt suspicion out of my head.

27. Have you ever had a good feeling
about something and it turned out you
were right?
hm....for both good and bad things
actually.

28. Do you ever wish you were famous?
yes and no. it hurts to be famous.but
i'm a leo and leos love to be in the
centre of the limelight.

29. Do u ever wish u were a man?
yeah. they get all the good stuff. the
i grew up and found out tt being a
girl was powerful too.

30. Do you think any men will open this
just because it's labeled "The Female
Survey"?
hm......no. most probably, they would
avoid this.

lalalalalala!!!

i've been reading tsubasa and the shock of what happened to fai is still setting into my subconscious.or should i say....yuui....

i missed again. i gotta stop. i shouldn't be obsessing over a guy like this.