Paranoia; An RH. M Production
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I am : Inane, Insane, Indelicate, In Depression, In Melancholy, In Happiness.....IT'S ALL ABOUT THE I.

Champa Ha, otherwise known as Rhiannon Merlin.
Avid Fan of Hetalia , Yaoi, reading, Prussia and Canada,Music, Monty Python, cool lines and everything that's cold.
Strong believer of Magic and witchcraft, and knows that she can be irritating and insane.
Now, before you get cursed by the Knights who say "Ni", yell that you're pining for the Fjords 100x
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Wishlist

Wishlist eh? I have to do this? Okay... Wants a cool jacket that fits me .
To be favourited as an author on my Fanfic.
New Ipod.
Perfect Fifths by Megan McCafferty
To actually be somewhat sane by the time i reach 50
For the UN to actually do something .
To meet Gilbert and Matthew.


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    Designer: SPLASH!
    Base code: heroine Resources: 1 | 2

    Wednesday, September 26, 2007

    say hello to the girl who survived math and econs today.


    and broke her right arm doing so.

    sigh....

    othello tomorrow

    Monday, September 24, 2007

    the words of fury and hate could be here at taman jurong at 740 in the morning....

    "fuck , lah! if the taxi is on call, why even stop in the first place!"

    as the words came out of my mouth, the tears came...

    how on earth did i get scolded by a taxi driver at 7.40 in the morning?! Not funny, u know....taxi drivers are really really mean....

    and it was the first day of the exams! aargh!!!!!!!MY MORALE WAS SO LOW BY THE TIME I CAME TO SCHOOL!!!!

    luckily, the first paper cheered me up." historical monuments should be preserved." discuss....

    i love this topic....gave me a bit of a chance to rant at stuff i hate, eg. the stupid freaking hong kong gov which tore down one of my fave places in hong kong...( that ferry pier didn't do anything to u idiots!), the nazis which destroyed that village in france during world war two( get your facts right! it was the wrong name!!!!stupid village got destroyed for NOTHING!) and people who wish to destroy more monuments. plus, i vented a bit of my anger at the super freaking idiot who stole my phone....(i did not write that on the paper though.it was my anger)...




    gp pr 2? lets say i hate compre..


    i later went to study with amy, fiona, liwen, myra and a new girl i have never met called cindy. fiona left early and she looked so terribly upset....i hope she's okay...... i hate it when ppl cry..........

    Sunday, September 23, 2007

    Last preparations for tomorrow's exams includes studying, (and along the way, making a lot of crap ass remarks with Prince Amy), praying for my sanctity and loads and loads of luck. so i'll be doing so here. Break a leg out there ppl. pre u ones exams begin tomorrow.

    To all my good frens , whether be from MI , any JC or secondary school .

    Judgement day is upon us.

    the day when we all proceed to the battle field, i want you guys to not lose hope.
    mentally strong we are in our powers and as Empress Mage , I'll wish all of you good luck.














    well, this is it.

    this is what we all have been working for.

    GP tomorrow, 0830-1000 hrs and 1045-1145hrs.


    the war has started. may the best people win.

    Saturday, September 22, 2007

    i would be screaming about it, but i'm in shock.

    my phone is stolen
    this is ridiculous.


    i've gone through the story a million times.
    i was listening to it when fiona borrowed my ipod.
    i took it off when fiona gave me a side of the ipod.
    earphones should still be attached to it.
    next thing i knew.
    they were gone. the earphones were there.but not my phone.

    i'm thinking positive. melvin , liwen and fiona were great.
    they stayed to help me find the phone.especially melvin. he left halfway during the search to meet his gf, nut he actually came back halfway cause he said he wanted to help me.
    so nice of him right?

    we informed carl's junior about it. they agreed to review the cctv to see if they can get any info.any movement and they'll inform melvin.
    meanwhile i'm going to not think about it and be optimistic.

    they cheered me up by going shopping for sweet treats ! melvin got me a pretzel and a bar of choc!yay to melvin! we also went to discuss about magic. liwen and fiona goofed around a bit to cheer me up.
    thank u so much. i'm so sorry to have put u guys through this.

    i'll never forget this.

    ps. to the person who took my phone. i'm a really nice person on the outside so i won't press charges if it was found. but watch out. i'll make sure u will be hunted down by artemis, the goddess of the hunt. mark my words. a mage doesn't make threats for no reason.

    Thursday, September 20, 2007

    Hey ppl. well, i have been writing a lot cause i wanted to start on my story which the characters are based on the ppl i meet in school.
    if u wanna guess who randias , josef , florina and ganerys are parodies of, be my guess. it's kinda obvious who rhiannon is.

    i have been having fun in school though the promos are coming. this would be fun.
    i'm still not talking to her, i have made frens with siti and....


    A huge chicken flew over our school and killed us all!!!








    i am so retarded , am i?

    Tuesday, September 18, 2007

    Chapter 2 . King's Request.


    Sirius, the Millennian Palace.

    The young mage walked briskly towards the King's room. The passing people of the court had bowed or greeted her but she only waved or muttered a response. She had important business with the king , and no one was going to stop her.
    She reached the King's rooms in record time . knocking once before opening the door. King Josef was on his desk, writing a letter.
    'Rhiannon!" he beamed, putting down his quill.'What brings you to my chambers?"
    Bowing before replying, Rhiannon took the moment to observe the king. Josef of the Millennian Court was quite young for one the people described as all powerful. Many kings had reached a certain age before actually gaining true power but Josef had managed his responsibilties to the public rather well , considering his youth. In fact many had failed to associate the youthful king sitting in front of her to the name of Josef of Sirian. He also did not fit the image of a mighty king , for he , though rather fit , was lean rather than muscular looking and his skin, no matter how many times he went under the sun, was pale beyond measure. However , his appearance belied his true abilities, for King Josef was not only well trained in all sports, he had a good brain and was known for starting the first debates for the benefit of the country, somehow coining the term as "parliament." Rising up from her position , she stated, " Business from the Head or the Order." refering to the knights of the Order of the _________ .
    The king frowned." I thought I just settled business with them."
    "Your Majesty, you have."
    "Then what business do they have with me now?"
    Rhiannon grinned slightly before replying , " Your sister ,Your Majesty."
    Josef groaned . "By the great god Laikan, what did she do now? And cut all this Majesty talk. It makes me nervous. "
    The king's sister Florina was one of the biggest mischief makers in the whole of the Court of Millennia.Not only was she, deemed by many elders of the court as a trouble maker , her inability to act , as the head of the order would say "like a lady benefitting her status" was well known throughout the Court as well.
    Rhiannon had to hide the grin again as she replied," Well,Your Majesty..."
    'That's Sir to you." While it could not be said that King Josef required absolute rule in his court, it was well known that he was in love with his title as king, and wouldn't let anyone forget it.
    She continued,'My lady wishes to join the Order . As a fully fledged Knight."
    Josef winced," Oh dear."
    Unlike most royal courts in neighbouring countries, the King had passed a bill during Parliament to allow females to become knights. This had yielded to positive results among the people and soon many females had joined the Order, making it popular among the noble women. still there were apphrensions, mostly by the most vocalistic person of the male Order Members, Lord Ganerys of Hariza. Rhiannon remembered the last time he had seen the Lady Florina. They still fought over the events that occurred that time.
    The King sighed . "I'll talk to Lord Ganerys later.Meanwhile, we need to discuss something, you and i."
    This wasn't something she expected." What , sir?"
    The King moved out of his desk to move towards his bookshelf , which housed many of the King's favourite literary works." I need you to meet the new arms instructor and show him the ropes tomorrow."
    Now this was too unexpected , and she felt her eyes widen." Isn't this something that Lord Ganerys can do?"
    " Lord Ganerys is currently training the new recruits of the Order , and i have no one else to spare.And he has something which i need to to check out for me . Anyway , ever since your last experiment wrapped up, i thought you had free time?"
    Rhiannon snorted. ' You mean when Florina replaced the chemicals so that the entire experiment could blow up and turn my room pink?"
    The King showed a hint of a grin ," Yes well, it was a lovely shade of pink."
    She groaned," Sir, i'll take care of that shade later. I agree to take the new instructor around."
    Now the King grinned." i knew you'll come around.Inside your grumpy heart you do have a soft spot for your king."
    " Please don't start on that ,sir."
    Josef nodded , grinning widely. Then he turned back to his shelf to pick out his book.

    Monday, September 17, 2007

    Chapter 1. The Awaiting

    Orionis

    All Randias could see was blue.
    Lying on his back, his face slightly tilted away from the sun, it was all he could do to push back the overwhelming mix of emotions he was experiencing.
    Such clearness , such a soft shade of blue...Months ago, he would have given up almost anythingjust to have a nap under a sky so blue without worry of someone picking his pocket or slitting his throat. Now tha he was actually doing so, he couldn't help but fight the reflex action of drawing his knife out of his wide sleeved shirt.
    You're free, he reminded himself. Free of the Cage. The King himself bought your freedom. You won't have to pray for the dead anymore, or force yourself to kill for survival. Furthermore , did not the King himself made you come to his court to become his arms instructor ?
    Even so, he was worried as to what he was getting himself into. Firstly he was not used to the new freedom that was granted upon him. Secondly, the fact that he had to work in the Royal Court made him seriously worried. Like all the people of the country of Tei, he knew of the Royal Family of Millennia. King Josef had only ruled for three years, but already his many actions and campaigns for the good of the country had already made him a legend among the people.He was also powerful , having made several alliances with neighbouring countries for peace . Randias himself had admired the king , believing him to be the rightful just king that Tei needed.However , there were many rumours among the skeptics of Tei that questioned his meteoric rise towards peace. Wasn't it just a bit too quick? they questioned. Also there was that certain scanda a few years back when Josef's father was still King.....
    Randias quickly shook his head. King Josef was the one that saved you, he repeated for what seemed like the 200th time in his head. If he was like what they said, why did he save me?
    He sat up, slowly, ruffling his hair off bits of grass and leaves.
    Two more days till I leave this place. Let's make the best of it.

    Thursday, September 13, 2007

    i dunno what i did today.
    but my head is spinning even more so than before.
    it's pounding and i feel like screaming.
    but i think that after some sleep, i'll be better.

    by the way, i redid the class blog!

    yay!!!!

    very bright now, quite interesting looking, but i have plans for this thing.

    every week , i will update what we have to do and announcements or such on sat.this will make sure that the blog will have a new post every week , thus making it less demanding on the people posting.

    and i also got a new tagboard!!! yay!!
    for the class that is.

    the situation is actually driving me mad.
    i dunno what to do, especially in school.




    but then again, i have other frens who will support me.





    hopefully.




    i miss his smile.


    by the way, i recently had a dream where i broke my leg and i was happy about it cause i got to wear a cast which meant ppl got to draw on it, making me really happy.

    hopefully it is a sign.

    Wednesday, September 12, 2007

    Message: Name 11 people you can think
    of right
    off the top of your head. Don't read
    the questions underneath until you
    write the names of all 11 people. This
    is a lot funnier if you actually
    randomly list the names first.. No
    cheatin.

    1.Ying Jie (rafe)
    2.Vihasini (leo)
    3.Parrimala (donny)
    4.Fiona (fifi)
    5.Melvin (amy)
    6.Maxime (maxilla)
    7.Dinesh (Transdinesh)
    8.Yoke Hwee (lil cuz)
    9.Siti Rahmah (Siti)
    10.Siti Aishah (monkey)
    11.Lin Jia Yi (sessh)



    DON'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED UP
    THE TOP!!

    HOW DID YOU MEET #4?
    First day of school....i accidently said she looked like she was in a relationship with albert....she was wearing chij uniform.

    WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITHOUT # 6?
    All the bullshit will go out of my life. there's no one to fight over the window with, no one to bully....oh wait.....it already happened...i'm living it....sigh

    WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF #2 AND # 6 WERE
    GOING OUT?
    WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!the pm in training and le mor hua de francaise? NO WAY!!that will only happen if hell has frozen over!!!!!!

    HOW OLD IS #8 ?
    15 this year...right now 14

    WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF #5 CONFESSED THEY
    LOVE YOU ?
    the horror.....he has a gf already!!! and a wife!!! and a lover!!! me? that will never happen!

    WHOS #10'S BEST FRIEND?
    Pokemon and inuyasha. not to mention gundam seed, xxxholic, tsubasa chronicles....

    HAVE YOU EVER EATEN with #1?
    yeah.

    DO YOU MISS #1?
    sometimes. but we talk and message each other frequently.

    WHO IS #11 DATING?
    Pokemon

    WHAT DO YOU THINK OF #3?
    Fellow bookworm and smart kid!

    WHAT DO YOU THINK OF #9?
    siti.....the TRUE drama queen. boy she can cry at the drop of a hat....sweet kid too.


    WHAT WOULD U DO IF #4 AND #7 WERE
    DATING?
    WHAHAHAHHHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!(OMG I LIKE THIS THING.)
    well, firstly i'll knock 4 on the head and war with 7. but if they truly like each other.......i'll just be laughing all the way till graduation.


    WHO DOES #2 LIKE?
    hm............................ ratatouille?

    WOULD YOU MARRY #7?
    OMG. that will only happen if hell froze over....

    DO YOU LOVE #10?
    My monkey junior rocks!

    EVER SLEPT IN THE SAME ROOM AS ANY OF
    THE NUMBERS?
    hm...yeah. in class .




    this is just too hilarious.....!!!! i was laughing at the marrying part.......that was soo hilarious!!!

    Sunday, September 09, 2007

    In the Name of the Father Lyrics
    Artist(Band):U2


    Come to me
    Come lie beside me
    Oh don't deny me
    Your love


    Make sense of me
    Walk through my doorway
    Don't hide in the hallway
    Oh love...step over


    I'll follow you down
    I'll follow you down


    In the name of whiskey
    In the name of song
    You didn't look back
    You didn't belong


    In the name of reason
    In the name of hope
    In the name of religion
    In the name of dope


    In the name of freedom
    You drifted away
    To see the sun shining
    On someone else's day


    In the name of United and the BBC
    In the name of Georgie Best and LSD


    In the name of a father
    And his wife the spirit
    You said you did not
    They said you did it


    In the name of justice
    In the name of fun
    In the name of the father
    In the name of the son


    Call to me
    No one is listening
    I'm waiting to hear from you love


    Stay with me
    It's cold in the ground
    But there's peace in the sound
    Of the white and the black
    Spilling over


    I'll follow you down
    I'll follow you down
    I'll follow you down




    sorry, i'm a bit in the god worshipping mode, even though i'm not a christian.....



    so...here are a few videos....



















    i told you ppl i was in a god seeking mode.........



    so...i added some non christian videos....pagan magic actually....
    meet champa's obession with charmed!!!


    Saturday, September 08, 2007

    I dunno what to say.

    then say nothing. it's better that way.




















    let it be known.....i DID NOT go to Italy and France. Nor did i steal this from a website. My step sis and step bro did though. Thta's where i got them from.

    the little kid featured in the photos is jade. she seems so much more girly and peaceful than me at that age. i dun really care...but i'm beginning to think it's the cause of my psychosis......


    oh yeah...this is my bro Phunam and sis Lan and bro in law Adam.






    i am super freaking jealous cause they got to go to italy and france......i wanna go there too!!!! so much historical fascination is waiting there for me!!!!!
    photos are from phunam . the others are from adam....(i think).
    honestly i hate being in an arts influenced family.....




    Friday, September 07, 2007





    ms jamaliah, our drama teacher , took this video of us playing a theatre game........i however , got laxman into hot soup.....as usual......watch and learn...



    meanwhile.....harry is on my mind....cause of this....

    Thursday, September 06, 2007




    You Are Midnight



    You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.

    Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.

    Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.

    You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.






    i came back from mugging with melvin and fiona just now...but rafe just got some mr brown show episodes for me.....yay to rafe!sleepy cause of all tt studying....





    The True You



    You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.



    With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.



    You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others.



    The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.



    You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.



    When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out.





    hm......i love the mr brown show......kudos to yj again....hm...selfish....i agree with that....




    Your Personality Is



    Idealist (NF)




    You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.

    You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.



    You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.

    Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.



    You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.

    Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.



    In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.



    At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.



    With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.



    As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.



    On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.




    hm....my lil cuz( who is not actually my cousin at all) yoke hwee, sent me this song.....seems nice....and the lyrics seem really nice....so i'm putting it on here.
    mind you this is only a translation of the original song, cause the original is in japanese....



    Come now, let us forget that our future will
    once again be splattered with blood.
    When the mild wind coils around you,
    that is surely a sign

    Saying run away, saying run away
    From your far too tragic destiny
    You are not a flower from Hell
    In a place like that
    Do not bloom, do not bloom
    Don't get seized and taken away

    The silently fluttering shards of time
    Who has my hand in their grasp?
    Who has my hair between their fingers?
    The sprout that just cried, deep inside
    It can feel a sign

    Saying fly beyond, saying fly beyond
    Away from the cogs of destiny
    You are not a flower from Hell
    In a place like that
    Do not scatter, do not scatter
    and don't leave any seeds behind
    If they sprout, the karma will return to you.

    Saying run away, saying run away
    From your far too tragic destiny
    You are not a flower from Hell.
    In a place like that
    Do not bloom, do not bloom
    Don't get seized and taken away

    The silently fluttering shards of time....

    zigazigazongazongzong....

    Tuesday, September 04, 2007

    is anybody listening? i need to get over myself.
    is anybody listening? i need to get over myself.
    is anybody listening? i need to get over myself.
    is anybody listening? Listening?

    i feel like screaming. tired, cranky, claustrophobic.

    no one wants to listen to me.
    no one.

    bleak, tired.
    i need help.
    i need air.
    i need a place where someone i care about listens to me for awhile.

    just awhile.
    i need awhile to talk.
    i need someone special to be there for me.
    i need a sympathizer.

    i need you.



    but you're not on the horizon.
    you're never on the horizon.


    remember that time in sec2?
    we promised keep in touch.

    now look at us.



    where are we now?


    no where near each other i gather.


    i'm nearly in the same situation again.


    see this is why i have commitment issues, cause i know somehow they'll break.

    why waste yourself for disappointment?

    i didn't make an impact on your lives. how important am i to you i'll never know, due to me never being important to someone.














    stop the world. i wanna get on/off.

    Monday, September 03, 2007

    feeling in a flirty mood today.i feel like one of those little puppies snuggling up to their human owner. i dun have a human owner though cause i'm human myself, so i snuggle up to my blanket.

    and i keep doing stupid things.....damn it! stop it chums! you're not respecting youself as a female!!!!argh!!!!

    names that champa has recently aquired:

    chumps, chumos, chumples, chumpsys, chumpa chups(i have no idea why. go figure)

    i will kill dad for giving me this name. oh wait he's dead.

    so....back to flirty mood.

    i love to snuggle up in my blanket.
    i love reading in bed while snuggling up in my blanket
    i love that i feel so warm in this blanket.



    i love being an ass sometimes. makes me darn happy.

    i'vebeen searching for my favourite cartoon Daria. so far , still can't find in, but i found something in french. hello? how the hell am i supposeed to understand it?

    getting bored. getting really bored........

    reading fan fiction



    perhaps i should be happy some other time. right now i can't write.

    Sunday, September 02, 2007
    hey there!

    Hey there, chumpa asked me to blog this out. ((:
    Btw, let me introduce myself, i am Fiona from her class and i love running! hahahaha.. And i love ACJC too! (: Regarding abt chumpa, i have no idea why she wanted me to do this. All i know is that she said, 'like OMG! fiona blog for me, pretty pretty please!' hahaha.. yeha and so here i am.
    She is always full of bursting energy and everytime i sees her at the control station, she walked briskly as though there are so bombs placing in the control station lol. She is a VERY HECTIC PERSON! and very vocalistic! My conclusion is that, she might suffer some weird sydrome. haha.. Oh gawd, chumps, you gotta to see a doctor quick! B4, it gets worse! hhaha..((:
    I guess that's abt it. I love writing on her blog, like invading her privacy, furthermore, it's just not her style of writing. It's mine.
    ciao! ((: haha.. If you guys wanna to know who i am, ask god! ((:
    cheerio!

    Saturday, September 01, 2007

    Fall.( by me)

    falling again.....
    free fall....
    all because of one reason.
    the coldness and the insensitivity
    of what used to be beautiful weather.

    you eyes on mine
    tell me nothing
    but show their coldness once more
    darkness is descending
    masking us all.

    i don't know what has happened
    but one thing is for sure
    when the dark rises
    the innocence will fall.


    falling....into nothingness.


    a conversation between me and laxman.

    me: it's been a long time since we got married huh?
    laxman: has it?
    me: well, actually i have got something to tell you.
    laxman: well? what is it?
    me: i've just been to the gynae actually...
    laxman: what for?
    me: well, the stomach problems , the nausea ? you're going to be a father.
    laxman: but i'm already a father.
    me: i mean, you're going to be a father again.
    laxman: (stones)
    me:now i know, it's been hard to accept since you we are quite old, but dun you see, it could be a start of something new? i mean, when we had kids i always felt that each kid was a bundle of joy , new life. i mean this kid could be a new starting point for you too? just that , kids make me feel so godlike.....dun you feel that too?
    laxman: (still stones)
    me: is there something wrong dear?are you unhappy about this pregnancy? i know it's a late kinda thing but thats okay, right? i mean we've been a team for so long.....but we can always abort-
    laxman: it's not you, it's me.
    me: what?
    laxman: you're pathetic.
    me:excuse me?
    laxman: i said,you're pathetic.what have you given me all this time?
    me: well, everything!
    laxman: well that's something that anyone else can give me.(stands up) there's something i want to tell you .
    me: what's wrong? talk to me!
    laxman:i want out.
    me: what?
    laxman: i want out.
    me: out ? out? OUT? after all this time?
    laxman: i want out.
    me: what have i done? what have i done to make you hate me so much??


    thus ended my one and only relationship.this is what happens when you get into a drama workshop. you can act in anything you want.


    the instructor was quite nice about it.
    he was all ,"laxman, i feel that you have been working with one of the most generous actresses of all. i mean she was giving you her all, but you haven't been doing enough. but then this scene was very good cause even though there was lack of action from the actor's side the scene just made you want to slap him right, cause he seemed so heartless?excellent, both of you."

    i am so proud of myself.haha....darn ego.....

    but i was trembling inside, cause i was thinking of him when we were doing this.

    he's not online now. i feel so alone without him.

    i am just a sucker for love, even if i am a cynic.

    watched ratatouille today with tmnt. it does live up to the reviews of melvin and the newspapers. darn funny too. perhaps i should trust melvin more.