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I am : Inane, Insane, Indelicate, In Depression, In Melancholy, In Happiness.....IT'S ALL ABOUT THE I.

Champa Ha, otherwise known as Rhiannon Merlin.
Avid Fan of Hetalia , Yaoi, reading, Prussia and Canada,Music, Monty Python, cool lines and everything that's cold.
Strong believer of Magic and witchcraft, and knows that she can be irritating and insane.
Now, before you get cursed by the Knights who say "Ni", yell that you're pining for the Fjords 100x
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Wishlist eh? I have to do this? Okay... Wants a cool jacket that fits me .
To be favourited as an author on my Fanfic.
New Ipod.
Perfect Fifths by Megan McCafferty
To actually be somewhat sane by the time i reach 50
For the UN to actually do something .
To meet Gilbert and Matthew.


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    Friday, January 30, 2009

    The Raven
    [First published in 1845]

    Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary,
    Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
    While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
    As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
    `'Tis some visitor,' I muttered, `tapping at my chamber door -
    Only this, and nothing more.'

    Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
    And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
    Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow
    From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore -
    For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels named Lenore -
    Nameless here for evermore.

    And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
    Thrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
    So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating
    `'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door -
    Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; -
    This it is, and nothing more,'

    Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
    `Sir,' said I, `or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
    But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
    And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
    That I scarce was sure I heard you' - here I opened wide the door; -
    Darkness there, and nothing more.

    Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
    Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before
    But the silence was unbroken, and the darkness gave no token,
    And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, `Lenore!'
    This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, `Lenore!'
    Merely this and nothing more.

    Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
    Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
    `Surely,' said I, `surely that is something at my window lattice;
    Let me see then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore -
    Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; -
    'Tis the wind and nothing more!'

    Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
    In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore.
    Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
    But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door -
    Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door -
    Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

    Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
    By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
    `Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,' I said, `art sure no craven.
    Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the nightly shore -
    Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!'
    Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

    Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
    Though its answer little meaning - little relevancy bore;
    For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
    Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door -
    Bird or beast above the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
    With such name as `Nevermore.'

    But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only,
    That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
    Nothing further then he uttered - not a feather then he fluttered -
    Till I scarcely more than muttered `Other friends have flown before -
    On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before.'
    Then the bird said, `Nevermore.'

    Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
    `Doubtless,' said I, `what it utters is its only stock and store,
    Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful disaster
    Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore -
    Till the dirges of his hope that melancholy burden bore
    Of "Never-nevermore."'

    But the raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling,
    Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird and bust and door;
    Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
    Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore -
    What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore
    Meant in croaking `Nevermore.'

    This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
    To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core;
    This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
    On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamp-light gloated o'er,
    But whose velvet violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o'er,
    She shall press, ah, nevermore!

    Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
    Swung by Seraphim whose foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor.
    `Wretch,' I cried, `thy God hath lent thee - by these angels he has sent thee
    Respite - respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore!
    Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe, and forget this lost Lenore!'
    Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

    `Prophet!' said I, `thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! -
    Whether tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
    Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted -
    On this home by horror haunted - tell me truly, I implore -
    Is there - is there balm in Gilead? - tell me - tell me, I implore!'
    Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

    `Prophet!' said I, `thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil!
    By that Heaven that bends above us - by that God we both adore -
    Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
    It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels named Lenore -
    Clasp a rare and radiant maiden, whom the angels named Lenore?'
    Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

    `Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!' I shrieked upstarting -
    `Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!
    Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
    Leave my loneliness unbroken! - quit the bust above my door!
    Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!'
    Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

    And the raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
    On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
    And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming,
    And the lamp-light o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
    And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
    Shall be lifted - nevermore!

    -Edgar Allan Poe




    Edwin Arlington Robinson. 1869–

    45. Richard Corey

    WHENEVER Richard Cory went down town,
    We people on the pavement looked at him:
    He was a gentleman from sole to crown,
    Clean favored, and imperially slim.

    And he was always quietly arrayed,
    And he was always human when he talked;
    But still he fluttered pulses when he said,
    "Good-morning," and he glittered when he walked.

    And he was rich—yes, richer than a king,
    And admirably schooled in every grace:
    In fine, we thought that he was everything
    To make us wish that we were in his place.

    So on we worked, and waited for the light,
    And went without the meat, and cursed the bread;
    And Richard Cory, one calm summer night,
    Went home and put a bullet through his head.


    A blade of grass

    You ask for a poem.
    I offer you a blade of grass.
    You say it is not good enough.
    You ask for a poem.

    I say this blade of grass will do.
    It has dressed itself in frost,
    It is more immediate
    Than any image of my making.

    You say it is not a poem,
    It is a blade of grass and grass
    Is not quite good enough.
    I offer you a blade of grass.

    You are indignant.
    You say it is too easy to offer grass.
    It is absurd.
    Anyone can offer a blade of grass.

    You ask for a poem.
    And so I write you a tragedy about
    How a blade of grass
    Becomes more and more difficult to offer,

    And about how as you grow older
    A blade of grass
    Becomes more difficult to accept.

    -- Brian Patten

    Death

    He's dead
    the dog won't have to
    sleep on his potatoes
    any more to keep them
    from freezing

    he's dead
    the old bastard -
    he's a bastard because

    there's nothing
    legitimate in him any
    more
    he's dead
    he's sick-dead

    he's
    a godforsaken curio
    without
    any breath in it

    he's nothing at all
    he's dead
    shrunken up to skin

    Put his head on
    one chair and his
    feet on another and
    he'll lie there
    like an acrobat -

    Love's beaten. He
    beat it. That's why
    he's insufferable -

    because
    he's here needing a
    shave and making love
    an inside howl
    of anguish and defeat -

    he's come out of the man
    and he's let
    the man go -
    the liar

    Dead
    his eyes
    rolled up out of
    the light - a mockery

    which
    love cannot touch -

    just bury it
    and hide its face
    for shame.

    -- William Carlos Williams


    At this point in time, u can sorta tell what kinda state i'm in.

    Wednesday, January 28, 2009

    " Happy People Don't Keep Diaries."

    - Adrian Mole, Adrian Mole and the Weapons Of Mass Destruction


    hm, not that i'm depressed or anything, but do u realise that some people ignore their blogs for days when they're happy?

    i guess it's cause they're too busy to blog.

    i;m getting oddly jaded and cynical nowadays.


    ___________________________________________________________________________________


    What? They never said that I was wrong.

    Monday, January 19, 2009

    now when she does it like this, would u do it like that?

    Wednesday, January 14, 2009

    this is funny!


    La la la la la la la la
    la la la la la la la la (2x)

    Oh baby baby have you seen Amy tonight?
    Is she in the bathroom? Is she smokin up outside? Ouuh
    Oh baby baby does she take a piece of lime
    For the drink that I’ma buy her
    Do you know just what she likes so?
    Oh oh tell me have you seen her
    Cuz I’m so-oh oh
    I can’t get her out of my brain
    I just wanna go to the party she gon’ go
    Can somebody take me home?
    Ha ha he he ha ha ho

    Love me, hate me
    Say what you want about me
    But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to If U Seek Amy
    Love me, hate me
    But can’t you see what I see?
    All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to If U Seek Amy
    Love me, hate me
    Britney Spears lyrics on www.lyrics-celebrities.anekatips.com

    La la la la la la la la
    la la la la la la la la (2x)

    Amy told me that's shes gonna meet me up
    I don’t know where or when and now their closing up the club Ouuuh
    I’ve seen her once or twice before she knows my face
    But its hard to see with all the people standing in the way ouuuh

    Oh oh
    Tell me have you seen her cause I’m so oh
    I can’t get her off of my brain
    I just wanna go to the party she gon’ go
    Can't somebody take me home
    Ha ha he he ha ha ho

    Love me, hate me
    Say what you want about me
    But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to If U Seek Amy
    Love me, hate me
    But can’t you see what I see?
    All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to If You Seek Amy
    Love me, hate me
    Say what you want about me
    Oh but can’t you see what I see
    Yeaaah say what you want about me (about me, about me)

    So tell me if you see her
    (if you knew what she was wearing and what she was like)
    Cause I’ve been waiting here forever
    (if you knew if she was going out of line)
    Oh baby baby if u seek Amy tonight
    Oh baby baby we’ll do whatever you like
    Oh baby baby baby
    Oh baby baby baby

    La la la la la la la la
    la la la la la la la la (2x)

    Love me, hate me
    Say what you want about me
    But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to If U Seek Amy
    Love me, hate me
    But can’t you see what I see?
    All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to If U Seek Amy

    Love me, hate me
    Say what you want about me yeaah
    Love me, hate me
    But can’t you see what I see
    All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to If You Seek Amy
    Love me, hate me
    Say what you want about me
    Oh but can’t you see what I see
    Say what you want about me
    But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to If U Seek Amy


    ( try saying the title very quickly, then you'll get the pun)

    Monday, January 12, 2009

    "I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure
    Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
    I am never supposed to show it, my crew ain't supposed to know it
    Even if it means goin' toe to toe with a Benzino it don't matter
    I'd never drag them in battles that I can't handle unless I absolutely have to
    I'm supposed to set an example
    I need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide 'em
    If some shit ever just pop off, I'm supposed to be beside 'em
    Now the Ja shit i tried to squash it, it was too late to stop it
    There's a certain line you just don't cross and he crossed it
    I heard him say Hailie's name on a song and I just lost it
    It was crazy, this shit way beyond some Jay-z and Nas shit
    And even though the battle was won, I feel like we lost it
    I spent too much energy on it, honestly I'm exhausted
    And I'm so caught in it I almost feel I'm the one who caused it
    This ain't what I'm in hip-hop for, it's not why I got in it
    That was never my object for someone to get killed
    Why would I wanna destroy something I helped build
    It wasn't my intentions, my intentions was good
    I went through my whole career without ever mentionin' ...
    Now it's just out of respect for not runnin' my mouth
    And talkin' about something that I knew nothing about
    Plus Dre told me stay out, this just wasn't my beef
    So I did, I just fell back, watched and gritted my teeth
    While he's all over t.v. down talkin' a man who literally saved my life
    Like fuck it i understand this is business
    And this shit just isn't none of my business
    But still knowin' this shit could pop off at any minute cuz

    Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
    We all fall down like toy soldiers
    Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
    But the battle wages on for toy soldiers "


    -Like Toy Solders, Eminem.



    i'm so sorry for these really really sad posts.i promised wan yi, ( if she's reading this, i'm so sorry, i'll make it cheerier next time, i promise!)tt i would make it happier, but still its not really working.


    anyway, for the past few days, i just felt like this, some shit has made me over think things when i see them, and its been making my attitude worse towards certain issues, such as the people around me. all i can say is, the people around me give me a headache, even if i love them so . this song is the only one tt comes closest tp what i feel, so i'm gonna use it to describe my situation.

    all i can say is : fuck . i hate people who make things feel bad for others, make me feel bad or say tt i'm actually like this,when in reality i'm like tt.


    ah well, gonna cleanse my aura.

    Sunday, January 11, 2009

    i think it was the fault of the strawberry milk....stupid weirdo dreams. i just have this temptation to just go back to sleep and nuzzle my pillow while making purring noises just like a cat. but its the last day, and from now on, its training to wake up when the electric guitar rolls around and screams in my ear.

    so i'm up early for a reason.

    and i'm worried.

    snoozel snoozel snoozel glip!

    Saturday, January 10, 2009

    argh, my head is absoluately hurting. and i can;t wait for school to start....

    just a very weird observation from the last few days, turns out i'm an absolute bitch when i get all hormonal and tt time of the month comes. for the past few days, when problems have arised, usually i would react," oh crap, more shit has come, what else have you got in store for me lord?" has been replaced with " OH GIVE THE GODDAMN ( CENSORED) A (CENSORED) AND I DON'T FREAKING CARE ! ( CENSORED)!"

    yes, the terror has arrived, and she also packs a punch too.

    seriously, what is the whole thing about courtesy for other people? i've been wondering about this for the past few days. so here goes my questions.

    we've been taught from young that honesty is the best policy when it comes to dealing with most things. so we do tt, cause we know its the RIGHT thing to do. which is understandable, cause when we were young, the smallest things do matter to us, and we were more or less exposed to smaller "disasters" or experiences that do not question the pros of honesty.

    How is it then, when we get older , that we can't be honest with others on how we feel about certain situations, and then keep it to themselves until one day when they break down in the middle of pe and start crying so badly tt no one's been able to do anything about it.....


    okay, maybe's the situation has happened before.

    but back to where i was.

    why are we so afraid to show our feelings and just admit the truth tt was just in front of our faces for so long? why do we just stick it in ourselves for so long until be just can't take it anymore? we know its bad for ourselves, and yet, we do it, out of fear that our friends would not accept us for our actions and our choices
    , or maybe out of fear that we would dislike what we have become?















    shit, i'm doing the whole," being extremely vague about my problems and my viewpoints ti the point tt no one gets what i;m trying to say" schtick. argh. i'm not good with words, nor am i good with speech.



    shit, then what am i good at?

    i need a break from my love hate relationships.....


    tt just didnt make sense either.




    i guess what i'm trying to say is....i wish i could feel happier about myself.

    for the past few days, i've been wondering about weird stuff. like overthinking comments by frens and and criticism. i've been denying ppl talking access with me and even those who do are not getting much from me.

    i'm going into shut down mode until crisis is over and i actually dun think so much.

    Friday, January 09, 2009

    ANDREA SARALINA BTE SAADA E
    ANG WEI JIA ISABELLA A
    CHAN LI WEN E
    CHEW WEI WEN MELVIN A
    CHUA WEIXUAN E
    HA THUC CHAMPA A
    HOW XIN HENG BERNADETTE A
    JONATHAN LIM ZHAN RUI B
    KULVINDER KAUR D/O KULDIP A
    LIM MELINDA C
    MUHAMMAD ZAINUDDIN B ZAHI C
    NUR ASSYIKIN BTE MOHAMAD A
    NUR DIYANAH BTE MOHD AZMI A
    NURANATI BTE RAZALI A
    PAMELJIT KAUR A
    RENUKA D/O BALASUBRAMANIU A
    SHAUN MATTHEW NIYO-RAMDAS A
    SITI AISHAH BTE KASMAN B
    SOLANO CHRISTINE TAN A
    SZE KAR YIN NICOLE A
    TAN CHEE HAN ALBERT D
    TAN JACK LONG A
    TAN KAI YI CHERYL A
    TAN SIXUAN C
    TENG YILIN ELAYNE B
    TEO YING YING ANITA A
    VALERIE MELISSA ANTHONY B
    WONG LIANG WEI GERAN A
    YIP XIN YI A

    Thursday, January 08, 2009

    Strange.

    ppl around me are having problems with their parents, and admittedly , my relationship with my mom is not red hot either today. argh. i'll leave the ranting to them though, cause if i start to go along, the people here will ger BORED! yes! A lousy presenter is actually spelt, to all you really bad spellers out there, B-O-R-I-N-G!

    sorry, i was trying out ths writing style of someone's fanfic.

    so.......
    to all u sad ppl out there who are more than a bit peeved out there due to parents, relationships, the electricity bill or just being unable to pass motion....


    'lava lava duck!"

    Tuesday, January 06, 2009

    i just woke up , but never had i felt more at lonesome with myself.

    sorta like tt time my brother started dating the girl opposite our house in hk. suddenly, he didn't have any time for me , and i lost my good friend who would act like a dumbass for me.

    it's the same now. but different situations.....fuck it.

    no matter how in i seem, i'm always somewhat on the outer ring of things...















    some friend.


    quote from Kar yee's blog, which i've found meaningful....


    "The stone may break, crack against the onslaught of unknown agents or feel the need to part. Conversely it could choose to stay together, for a lifetime in happiness. And I may never know. But my place is not here. I have to keep faith, for that is all there is that is left. Like Pandora's box, when the worst had had its evil ways there was hope, quiet and waiting. A li'something to fill that empty void.

    As the Thais hope for better days forthcoming the disruption of their tourism industry and politics. As Nigerians hope for better days in their country's political crisis. I hope along with them for the fulfilment that I have never known. I will believe, for that is really all I can do."

    Sunday, January 04, 2009

    Thanks Bern, for all the music you've been sending me! I've been listening to it and it's helping me in a very weird way!

    I was talking to bern yesterday cause she wanted me to hear " threnody to the victims of hiroshima" and asking me if it scares me too. to be frank, it does. The first few seconds sound like nails on a chalkboard in a rather creepy but weirdly good kinda way. which is kinda cool, cause i'm planning to scare melvin with this.....bwahahhahahahah. and when she heard tt i have a perchant for string music like violin, she's been sending me her favorites, as well as a chopin piano piece. next to violin, the piano's my fave instrumental kinda piece to play scores on. but since i can't i've been making do with these instrumental pieces to listen to to think and concentrate.

    cartman's an ass,and the little kids in south park are so darn cute, they way they all shouted " YAY!" when they heard tt wendy was fighting cartman after school. ( sorry, maybe i can do the concentration thing slowly).

    i'm trying for peace this year, without so much hyperness...



    "RESPECT MY AUTHORITAH!"

    damnit, south park's ruining me.

    Saturday, January 03, 2009

    THE RULES!
    bold the statements that are true to you
    italise the statements that you WISH are true
    leave the fibs alone
    then, stab 5 guys to do the same test

    I miss somebody right now.
    I don’t watch TV these days.
    I own lots of books. ( Both school, normal books and comic books! )
    I wear glasses or contact lenses.

    I love to play video games.
    I’ve tried marijuana.
    I have been in a threesome.
    I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
    I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
    I curse sometimes. ( Sometimes?! i do that all the time man! God Darn it!)
    I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.

    I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
    I’m TOTALLY smart.
    I’ve broken someone’s bones.

    I’m paranoid sometimes. ( in actual fact, i'm paranoid all the time. But it doesn't matter in this case)
    I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
    I need money right now.
    I love sushi.
    I talk really, really fast. (There's no need for trying. If you knew me , u'ld agree )

    I have long hair.
    I have lost money in Las Vegas.
    I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
    I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D
    I like the way I look.
    I am usually pessimistic.
    I have a lot of mood swings.
    I have a hidden talent.
    I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
    I have a lot of friends.
    I am currently single.

    I have pecked someone of the same sex.
    I enjoy talking on the phone.
    I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
    I love to shop.
    I enjoy window shopping.
    I would rather shop than eat.
    I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.

    I’m a pretty good dancer.
    I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
    I have a cell phone. ( which is what i use so tt my mom can contact me without making me embarrassed)

    I believe in God.
    I watch MTV on a daily basis.
    I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
    I’ve rejected someone before.
    I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.

    I want to have children in the future.
    I have changed a diaper before.
    I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
    I’m not allergic to anything.
    I have a lot to learn.

    I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger
    I am shy around the opposite sex.
    I have tried alcohol before.
    I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
    I own the “South Park” movie.
    I would die for my best friends.
    I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.

    I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
    I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
    Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
    I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.

    I have dated a close friends’s ex.
    I am happy at this moment!!
    I’m obsessed with guys
    I study for tests most of the time.
    I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
    I can work on a car.
    I love my job.

    I am comfortable with who I am right now.
    I have more than just my ears pierced.
    I walk barefoot wherever i can.
    I have jumped off a bridge.
    I love sea turtles.
    I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
    I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
    I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
    I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
    I hate office jobs.
    I love sci-fi movies.
    I think water rules.
    I went college out of state.
    I like sausages.
    I love kisses.
    I fall for the worst people.
    I adore bright colours.
    I can’t live without black eyeliner.
    I don’t know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
    I usually like covers better than originals.
    I can pick up things with my toes.

    I can whistle.
    I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
    I have ridden/owned a horse.

    I still have every journal I’ve ever written in
    I can’t stick to a diet.
    I talk in my sleep.
    I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.

    Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time
    I have jazz in my blood.

    I wear a toe ring.
    I have a tattoo.
    I can’t stand at LEAST one person that i work with. ( actually, i can't stand everyone. But tt's another story.)
    I am a caffeine junkie.
    I know what cosplaying is.
    I have been to over 15 conventions.
    I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
    I’m an artist.
    I only clean my room when necessary.
    I like a person of the same sex.
    I love being happy.
    I am an adrenaline junkie.( i'm only half bolding this cause its both the truth and a lie. i do feel and love the rush , but not on a rollercoaster. on other things, such as acting and performing. and sometimes running.)








    I'm not gonna tag anyone in this case. Somehow, it's getting really boring now.tagging.


    i think its best i get away from people now. i'm getting into the old lady crabby stage.



    perhaps early menopause is here.

    i kinda like tt.

    great, my first post of the year and its on meopause.