Paranoia; An RH. M Production
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I am : Inane, Insane, Indelicate, In Depression, In Melancholy, In Happiness.....IT'S ALL ABOUT THE I.

Champa Ha, otherwise known as Rhiannon Merlin.
Avid Fan of Hetalia , Yaoi, reading, Prussia and Canada,Music, Monty Python, cool lines and everything that's cold.
Strong believer of Magic and witchcraft, and knows that she can be irritating and insane.
Now, before you get cursed by the Knights who say "Ni", yell that you're pining for the Fjords 100x
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Wishlist

Wishlist eh? I have to do this? Okay... Wants a cool jacket that fits me .
To be favourited as an author on my Fanfic.
New Ipod.
Perfect Fifths by Megan McCafferty
To actually be somewhat sane by the time i reach 50
For the UN to actually do something .
To meet Gilbert and Matthew.


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    Saturday, March 28, 2009

    La Complainte De La Butte

    La lune trop bl�me
    Pose un diad�me
    Sur tes cheveux roux
    La lune trop rousse
    De gloire �clabousse
    Ton jupon plein trous
    La lune trop p�le
    Caresse l'opale
    De tes yeux blas�s
    Princesse de la rue
    Soit la bienvenue
    Dans mon coeur bless�
    les escarliers de la butte
    Sont durs aux mis�reux
    Les ailes des moulins
    Prot�gent les amoureux

    Petite mandigotte
    Je sens ta menotte
    Qui cherche ma main
    Je sens ta poitrine
    Et ta taille fine
    J'oublie mon chagrin
    Je sens sur tes l�vres
    Une odeur de fi�vre
    De gosse mal nourrie
    Et sous ta caresse
    Je sens une ivresse
    Qui m'an�antit
    les escaliers de la butte
    Sont durs aux mis�reux
    Les ailes des moulins
    Prot�gent les amoureux
    Mais voil� qu'il flotte
    La lune qu'il flotte
    La princesse aussi
    La la la la la La la la la la
    Mon r�ve �vanoui
    Les escaliers de la butte
    Sont durs aux mis�reux
    Les ailes des moulins
    Prot�gent les amoureux

    English Translation:
    The moon all too fair
    in your russet-red hair
    sits a sparkling crown
    The moon all too red
    with glory, is spread
    on your poor, tattered gown
    The moon, all too white,
    caresses the light in your world-weary eyes
    Princess of the street,
    do allow me to greet you,
    my broken heart cries

    Chorus:
    The stairways up to la butte
    Can make the wreched sigh
    While windmill wings of the moulin
    shelter you and I

    I feel, beggar-girl,
    your feathers, they curl
    as they seek out my wrists
    I feel your young breasts,
    your thin little waist
    I lose my regrets
    I taste on your mouth the feverish breath of a half-starving waif
    And with your caress
    I sense drunkenness
    erasing my life

    Chorus:
    The stairways up to la butte
    Can make the wreched sigh
    While windmill wings of the moulin
    shelter you and I

    And see how she skips,
    the moon how she drifts,
    The princess in tow
    Da da da da da da da da da da
    My reveries grow
    The steps of Montmartre, all uphill, are hardest on the poor
    The sails of the windmill, like wings, shelter all paramours

    Thursday, March 19, 2009

    strange much...i haven't been blogging so much lately.mayhaps its cause of my lack of inspiration from everything. Is it just me, or am i just drifting away from the ideals of humanity and just going off into my own world too much nowadays?

    it hurts sometimes, but then it subsides , only to re emerge and become 10 times worse.

    i need a break from this place, i need to know what's going on.

    i want out, want out. want outwantoutwantout.

    Just go away.

    Saturday, March 14, 2009

    The Times They Are A-Changin'

    Come gather 'round people
    Wherever you roam
    And admit that the waters
    Around you have grown
    And accept it that soon
    You'll be drenched to the bone.
    If your time to you
    Is worth savin'
    Then you better start swimmin'
    Or you'll sink like a stone
    For the times they are a-changin'.

    Come writers and critics
    Who prophesize with your pen
    And keep your eyes wide
    The chance won't come again
    And don't speak too soon
    For the wheel's still in spin
    And there's no tellin' who
    That it's namin'.
    For the loser now
    Will be later to win
    For the times they are a-changin'.

    Come senators, congressmen
    Please heed the call
    Don't stand in the doorway
    Don't block up the hall
    For he that gets hurt
    Will be he who has stalled
    There's a battle outside
    And it is ragin'.
    It'll soon shake your windows
    And rattle your walls
    For the times they are a-changin'.

    Come mothers and fathers
    Throughout the land
    And don't criticize
    What you can't understand
    Your sons and your daughters
    Are beyond your command
    Your old road is
    Rapidly agin'.
    Please get out of the new one
    If you can't lend your hand
    For the times they are a-changin'.

    The line it is drawn
    The curse it is cast
    The slow one now
    Will later be fast
    As the present now
    Will later be past
    The order is
    Rapidly fadin'.
    And the first one now
    Will later be last
    For the times they are a-changin'.

    Tuesday, March 10, 2009

    somehow, i just feel oh so tired and very weary. i also just realised that i hate getting photographed cause i just wanna wash out every trace of my existence. and the fact that i just dun take good photos. blame my ugly genes.

    Sunday, March 08, 2009

    I LOVE THE WATCHMEN.

    that said, i have now decided that my love of the watchmen has begun, and i am so gonna go insane when the dvd comes out. why on earth do my frens not like the movie was beyond me.

    lords upon all lords, i have now developed an obsession over the characters of Roschach and Nite Owl, especially Roschach. his view on the world at large was interesting, and it just shows that the superhero term is something that will disintergrate in real life, and just render the one trying to be it insane...

    before i bore u any longer on my love for the movie, here are some quotes:

    Rorschach:

    Rorschach's journal, October 12th 1985. Dog carcass in alley this morning, tire tread on burst stomach. This city's afraid of me. I've seen its true face. The streets are extended gutters and the gutters are full of blood. And when the drains finally scab over, all the vermin will drown. The accumulated filth of all their sex and murder will foam up about their waists and all the whores and politicians will look up and shout "Save us!"... and I'll look down and whisper "No."

    [discovering that Edward Blake was The Comedian.] Tonight, a comedian died in New York. Somebody knows why. Somebody knows.

    Rorschach's journal, October 13th 1985. 8:30pm. Meeting with Dreiberg left bad taste in mouth; a flabby failure who sits whimpering in his basement. Why are so few of us left active, healthy, and without personality disorders?

    Ozymandias:

    What do you take me for, a comic book supervillain? Do you seriously believe I would explain my masterstroke if there were the slightest chance of you affecting its outcome? I triggered it thirty-five minutes ago.



    The Comedian: Goddamn, I love working on American soil, Dan. Ain't had this much fun since Woodward and Bernstein.
    Nite Owl II: How long can we keep this up?
    The Comedian: Congress is pushing through some new bill that's gonna outlaw masks. Our days are numbered. Till then, it's like you always say: we're society's only protection.
    Nite Owl II: From what?
    The Comedian: You kidding me? From themselves.

    Wednesday, March 04, 2009

    STOP






    THE












    WORLD.















    i wanna get off.....

    Monday, March 02, 2009

    dear diary,

    can u blame me for wanting to write a normal diary entry? i'm getting afraid tt i will end up very disillusioned and becoming one of the crazies on the street, the ones tt u see, but dun wanna see.( irony: me , of all people, with the number one fear of losing all control of my mind and sanity. I can almost see the sharpness of the irony.)

    so anyway, diary. today was very disappointing. the people around me just had disappointing days. i have this strange feeling tt this will just contribute to those days which will just tear me apart. there was just no convincing that today was one of those days which will lead me to cling on to life.

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    ( continued next day)

    well diary, there it was again.today felt even worse than yesterday, and somehow , it was my fault.

    i'm not gonna go into details about my own views here. too many people.

    so anyway, due to my depressed nature, i had a talk with someone who i would not have expected to have this talk on suicide with. but she did, and somehow, she revealed to me that some of her frens have had dabbled in such due to problems, and even her had to see a shrink for awhile.

    somehow tt sorta shocked me, cause she had similar problems, and the fact that she just seemed so cheerful about it.the problems were most probably behind her, but it was just so shocking...

    i did ask her why was she like that, but diary, true to form, i have forgotten, absorbed as i was in my own despair.

    its strange,diary, that sometimes a person can get so self absorbed that she sees nothing around her except for what she thinks she sees. its so self absorbing that one just simply creates or invents what she thinks others are doing, thus making herself even more absorbed into her own world where she " sees". when one finally steps out, however, the scene is so much more different.and she wonders just how is it that she wouldn't- couldn't , more like, see this.

    truth is, most people just can't see beyond their own backyard or beyond their own scope.

    anyway, it was just one of the most weirdest things i have come to think about at a time like this. for some reason , my latest musings into the mortality of life have just increased to one per hour. usually its three or four per day.

    diary, is it so wrong to think about the idea of suicide?

    people seem to think that the topic is such a morbid one that usually i dun dare bring it in. but somehow, today i just can't stop thinking about the idea. i blame that ntu suicide guy, he got me started on this topic. or maybe he just opened up my scope on the idea.

    the point is, will the person who committed suicide understand just what the meaning of life is in that few seconds that he cuts away his life, knowledge which usually takes years and ages for one who lives life naturally to find out? i believe so. it will come rushing in at the last few minutes and perhaps he will die peacefully.....

    argh! frick!

    diary, somehow, i dun think i could ever keep up the writing of a normal diary entry for long....

    - ME