Paranoia; An RH. M Production
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I am : Inane, Insane, Indelicate, In Depression, In Melancholy, In Happiness.....IT'S ALL ABOUT THE I.

Champa Ha, otherwise known as Rhiannon Merlin.
Avid Fan of Hetalia , Yaoi, reading, Prussia and Canada,Music, Monty Python, cool lines and everything that's cold.
Strong believer of Magic and witchcraft, and knows that she can be irritating and insane.
Now, before you get cursed by the Knights who say "Ni", yell that you're pining for the Fjords 100x
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Wishlist eh? I have to do this? Okay... Wants a cool jacket that fits me .
To be favourited as an author on my Fanfic.
New Ipod.
Perfect Fifths by Megan McCafferty
To actually be somewhat sane by the time i reach 50
For the UN to actually do something .
To meet Gilbert and Matthew.


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    Designer: SPLASH!
    Base code: heroine Resources: 1 | 2

    Saturday, February 27, 2010
    A poem of despair and less of hope. Helps in the situation when I don't really have any feelings.

    Once on a yellow sheet of paper with green lines
    He wrote a poem
    And he called it “Chops”
    Because that was the name of his dog
    And that’s what it was about
    And his teacher gave him an A
    And a gold star
    And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
    And read it to his aunts
    That was the year Father Tracy
    Took all the kids to the zoo
    And he let them sing on the bus
    And his little sister was born
    With tiny toe nails and no hair
    And his mother and father kissed a lot
    And the girl around the corner sent him a
    Valentine signed with a row of X’s
    And he had to ask his father what the X’s meant
    And his father always tucked him in bed at night
    And was always there to do it

    Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
    He wrote a poem
    And he called it “Autumn”
    Because that was the name of the season
    And that’s what it was all about
    And his teacher gave him an A
    And asked him to write more clearly
    And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
    Because of the new paint
    And the kids told him
    Father Tracy smoked cigars
    And left the butts in the pews
    And sometimes they would burn holes
    The was the year his sister got glasses
    With thick lenses and black frames
    And the girl around the corner laughed at him
    When he asked her to go to Santa Claus
    And the kids told him why
    His mother and father kissed a lot
    And his father never tucked him in bed at night
    And his father got mad
    When he cried for him to do it

    Once on a paper torn from his notebook
    He wrote a poem
    And he called it “Innocence: A Question”
    Because that was the question about his girl
    And that’s what it was all about
    And his professor gave him an A
    And a strange steady look
    And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
    Because he never showed her
    That was the year Father Tracy died
    And he forgot how the end
    Of the Apostle’s Creed went
    And he caught his sister
    Making out on the front porch
    And his mother and father never kissed
    Or even talked
    And the girl around the corner
    Wore too much makeup
    That made him cough when he kissed her
    But he kissed her anyway
    Because that was the thing to do
    And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed
    His father snoring soundly

    That’s why on the back of a brown paper bag
    He tried another poem
    And he called it “Absolutely Nothing”
    Because that’s what it was really all about
    And he gave himself an A
    And a slash on each damned wrist
    And he hung it on the bathroom door
    Because this time he didn’t think
    He could reach the kitchen

    Written by: Dr. Earl Reum


    So , this is the perks of reading The Perks Of Being a Wallflower. This poem was featured on the book, and to be frank, reading that, as well as the book, have sort of given me a despairing sort of view.


    so, what with me being stuck in this country, I'm dreadfully afraid I am going to turn into either a lump of mosquito food or a bag of meat dumped into the cellar.

    with me in such a rut, the pastime have been spent usefully in typing out fanfic, reading, getting music and being an ass to my frens. Not till annoying orange standards, but whatever.

    By the way, I have been watching the annoying orange.

    Is it too strange when I say that the orange doesn't seem annoying to me? Good lord, I have become one with the annoyance so much so I can't distinguish what is annoying anymore.

    Okay, i just had one of those arguments about my future, and my mom is mad at me for bringing everything up again.

    I hate stuff like that. ever had those convos where you hate hurting someone , but u have to bring it up? and she gets mad at you?

    never have I expected myself to feel so dejected.

    I feel so empty
    i possibly might have no future.
    I might relegate myself to running that bloody shop until i die.
    i hate myself.
    okay, gotta be positive. be nice. be nice. be nice.

    but it sucks to be poor.

    Friday, February 26, 2010
    As a member of the species, when a guy looks great as a girl, you should feel insulted. Unless it's Prussia.



    Even as a GIRL, Prussia is seriously hot. Though he conversation with Germany is hilarious.




    and Matthew! Seriously, seriously love you. as a girl, you and your sister are good looking. You're still my fave .....

    nyotalia is seriously great. But also gives me a lower self esteem...

    Saturday, February 20, 2010
    Posts From Posts Past......Alliteration Rules.

    30 Things To Do In An Exam When You Know You're Going To Fail It Anyways!
    ( i found this on facebook, enjoy!)


    1. Get a copy of the exam, run out screaming "Andre, Andre, I've got the secret documents!!"

    2. Talk the entire way through the exam. Read questions aloud, debate your answers with yourself out loud. If asked to stop, yell out, "I'm SOOO sure that you can hear me thinking." Then start talking about what a jerk the instructor is.

    3. Bring a Game Boy. Play with the volume at max level.

    4. On the answer sheet find a new, interesting way to refuse to answer every question. For example: I refuse to answer this question on the grounds that it conflicts with my religious beliefs. Be creative.

    5. Run into the exam room looking about frantically. Breathe a sigh of relief. Go to the instructor, say "They've found me, I have to leave the country" and run off.

    6. 15 min. into the exam, stand up, rip up all the papers into very small pieces, throw them into the air and yell out "Merry Christmas." If you're really daring, ask for another copy of the exam. Say you lost the first one. Repeat this process every 15 min.

    7. Come into the exam wearing slippers, a bathrobe, a towel on your head, and nothing else.

    8. Come down with a BAD case of Tourette's Syndrome during the exam. Be as vulgar as possible.

    9. Bring things to throw at the instructor when s/he's not looking. Blame it on the person nearest to you.

    10. As soon as the instructor hands you the exam, eat it.

    11. Every 5 min. stand up, collect all your things, move to another seat, continue with the exam.

    12. Turn in the exam approx. 30 min. into it. As you walk out, start commenting on how easy it was.

    13. Get the exam. 20 min into it, throw your papers down violently, scream out "Fuck this!" and walk out triumphantly.

    14. Arrange a protest before the exam starts (ie. Threaten the instructor that whether or not everyone's done, they are all leaving after one hour to go drink.)

    15. Show up completely drunk (completely drunk means at some point during the exam, you should start crying for mommy).

    16. Comment on how sexy the instructor is looking that day.

    17. Come to the exam wearing a black cloak. After about 30 min, put on a white mask and start yelling "I'm here, the phantom of the opera" until they drag you away.

    18. If the exam is math/sciences related, make up the longest proofs you could possible think of. Get pi and imaginary numbers into most equations. If it is a written exam, relate everything to your own life story.

    19. Try to get people in the room to do a wave.

    20. Bring some large, cumbersome, ugly idol. Put it right next to you. Pray to it often. Consider a small sacrifice.

    21. During the exam, take apart everything around you. Desks, chairs, anything you can reach.

    22. Puke into your exam booklet. Hand it in. Leave.

    23. Take 6 packages of rice cakes to the exam. Stuff at least 2 rice cakes into your mouth at once. Chew, then cough. Repeat if necessary.

    24. Masturbate.

    25. Walk in, get the exam, sit down. About 5 min into it, loudly say to the instructor, "I don't understand ANY of this. I've been to every lecture all semester long! What's the deal? And who the hell are you? Where's the regular guy?"

    26. Do the entire exam in another language. If you don't know one, make one up!

    27. Bring a black marker. Return the exam with all questions and answers completely blacked out.

    28. Every now and then, clap twice rapidly. If the instructor asks why, tell him/her in a very derogatory tone, "the light bulb that goes on above my head when I get an idea is hooked up to a clapper. DUH!"

    29. From the moment the exam begins, hum the theme to Jeopardy. Ignore the instructor's requests for you to stop. When they finally get you to leave one way or another, begin whistling the theme to the Bridge on the River Kwai.

    30. After you get the exam, call the instructor over, point to any question, ask for the answer. Try to work it out of him/her.















    I re-read my old posts and feel as though i've developed as a person from 2005. 5 years going, people. I've been using this address for that long.

    And let's celebrate my lonely existence here! ( throws confetti.)

    Friday, February 19, 2010
    Yo ho, yo ho a Hikkomori life for me....



    Ah, Gilbert. Even with glasses, you can be so good looking.....

    Thursday, February 18, 2010



    Anyone recognise this? eh? If you're singporean, you'll def will.

    So in any case, Thanu asked me to do a survey based on this commercial for her class. It traumatised me for life, it did. so here are my answers for it.


    1. Did this ad catch your attention in any way? **if yes, please state how.

    Answer: Considering the fact that they spent half the commercial focusing on the bouncity bounce of the boobs, unfortunately it did catch my attention. I believe it also has scarred me for life. And seriously, bouncity bounce?

    2. Were you tempted to purchase this company’s services after watching it?

    To be frank, no. I'm very happy with the way my boobs bounce or are, thank you very much. And since I am not a mother of two, I do not need it as of yet.



    3. Do you believe the ad was successful in getting people to buy into its services, and if so, why?

    The advert has a two way effect, While women may choose to do so because of the fact they want their boobs to bounce again so that they'll feel self confident, others may feel either more inferior at the fact that the women's boobs bounced or the idea that women want their boobs to be big and bounce that way. Honestly, isn't that a little over generalising? Some women may not like to bounce their boobs like basketballs!



    4. Were you offended by this ad in anyway? And if so, why or how?

    Somehow, yes. Who wears such cleavage revealing clothes to pick children up from school anyway?! Isn't that sending the wrong message to kids that their mommies need to wear such in order to be good looking and be the envy of the school yard? Hello?! What the hell!

    And that's sending a subliminal message that in order to look good, they have to wear booby showing clothes! That's not something that kids wanna know! You're scarring them for life! And giving them the message that you need to be boobylicious to be envied in society!

    And the beginning of the advert was so chauvinistic! So you get your boobs to bounce again. Does every man in the road need to act that way?! That is not sending the message out that you have to have a healthy body image!





    5. If you were offended, were you offended by the ad or the services it was advertising

    Sorry, I was too much into ranting .

    I was more offended over the ad than the services. I mean, sure, I do think its okay for women to want to have a confident view of their bodies, yes, but not through a commerical like that! Its sending the wrong message! In order to look good or be confident, you need it? That's not the way it goes!


    6. Did this ad make you feel inferior? Or that you were lacking in any way after watching it?

    The ad merely made me more afraid of places like that. And I am happy with the way my body is. I don't want my boobies to bounce.


    7. Do you believe they should have used a different advertising tactic?

    While I have no suggestion to give on how to do that, they do need to change it. Please.



    Yes, the over traumatised have weird answers for their work.

    Wednesday, February 17, 2010
    Sometimes, some things you don't know is a good thing.... thing.


    You are a Chibi Seme!

    You are the seme in disguise. Able to fit in and get along with uke and seme alike, you are able to get close to the uke on their level before exerting your dominance. This makes you at times manipulative and able to fool others about your true seme nature. Because of your harmless appearance, it takes the flamboyant Flaming Uke to match wits and really bring out your aggressive side to expose you for the seme that you are.


    Most compatible with: Flaming Uke, Badass Uke

    Least compatible with: Dramatic Uke


    What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com, or find merchandise here.


    Never let it be said that I'm a prude. If you consider the fact that I know what a seme and an uke is,you gotta fear what else I do know....


    Tuesday, February 16, 2010
    I only support V'Day in honour of my OTP.



    SHE LIKED MY GIFT!

    SHE LIKED MY GIFT!!!

    SHE LIKED MY GIFT!!!!!

    sjsdbsbvdamnimsodarnhappyslapmesillykshdz,bfheesal!

    oh, and i received a very evil gift which i must admit was one of the most delightfully insane gifts i've ever received. I gotta hand it to you. You're even more insane than I am.

    YOU HEAR THAT, PEOPLE? THERE'S A GIRL MORE INSANE THAN I AM RUNNING AROUND! SHE'S MY GOD!

    Saturday, February 13, 2010
    FanGirl rising.....

    I went kyaa...

    I actually shouted kyaa.......

    i have gotta stop getting too happy over canada....

    Friday, February 12, 2010
    for a pair of nations that are different as day and night, but are still cute.



    Happy birthday, spain! Don't you look cool in a matador outfit! yayzies! I really hope that you'll have a good crop of tomatoes this year! Don't worry about romano...he loves you, but he's just so shy about it! have a great day!



    and not forgetting someone else whose birthday was the day before :




    NIHON-san!! DANJYOUBU OMETETOU! it's great to see you turn another year older!!yay! lay off the salted salmon for awhile. It's tasty , but too much of it is bad for you.i hope you get a cat for your birthday by greece san!

    Wednesday, February 10, 2010
    My NAME is MATTHEW, I'm....who?




    So I was happily reading from the Prussia x Canada community, when i came across this author's stuff from the series, Become One With Canada. I was quite a big fan of hers, cause I felt that she wrote one of the few best Prussia Canada fics.

    See, here's the thing that have led to my misconception.

    One, most Hetalia fans are girls. That is a valid assumption. So far, during my observation of pics of cosplayers and some snooping of some people's journals, I can readily testify that a lot of the cosplayers are girls. even though most of the characters there are guys. Go figure. It's the whole BL thing. Yeap, I'm turning into an Eliza as we speak.

    Secondly, since it was a mostly female demograph, the fact that the community is one which ships a couple has gotta be a highly female one. I could imagine the females in a girls school, sitting together and chatting about it. Well, the whole bunch of us that love Prussia and Canada, that is. I believe most of us would be considered nerds. Hey, your loss if you dun get why we love stuff like that.

    So why am I bringing this up? Well, firstly, I made a mistake. I shouldn't have assumed so readily that all fans of hetalia are girls. Cause the author of the story is a guy.

    Wait, this is the best part! He's a transgendered guy!

    I know, stupid of me, but i had to admit i was shocked.

    Why?

    I guess it was my perception that everyone around me was normal and that stuff like that never really happened. In my case, it reflects on my own personal upbringing and understanding of the people around me.

    In Singapore or Hong Kong, if one were to openly go up to you and said that he or she was gay, the fact is, some people, especially those old ladies in the neighborhood that gather and eat cookies every week ( you know who you are) , would treat you like the plague. They might question, " are you sure?" or even dismiss it as, " Oh, its just a phase."

    I guess its the same everywhere else. Look at it this way, we in Sg still can't repeal a damn Proposition. In America, they can't dismiss the Don't Ask Don't Tell policy. Dumbasses.

    Why is it that people are so misguided? Its not as though its the only amazing thing in the world , that a man or a woman would have these sort of feelings,or would want to have certain tendencies.

    Why do we condemn such things so easily when really, all humans are weird? I bet you ten cents that that lady next door to you, the one with the friendly cheerful face and offers you food, actually desires to have a more rollicking sex life, along with whips and chains and whipped cream.

    In any case, I read through the journal of Elict, also known as Exorcistor, who has a few journals, the one I read was his feelings of being a transgendered male. It's inspiring, here itis.

    So , what have I learnt today?

    1) never assume. its something that I have been saying, but it jumps up and surprises me at time. So constant vigilance on that.
    2) Everyone is essentially the same deep down, whether they like to be the uke in bed or the seme. If you guys like each other and are anime fans, I say you guys are frens with common interests.All of us still have the same fears and desires , we're still greedy and sad, we still want hope and happiness, we all dream and want to be recognized. I suppose that's the true reason why I support the fanship of Prussia and Canada, they both desire the same things and understand that despite their very shallow differences.
    3) No matter how i may say i'm open minded about things, i'm still rather close minded. hm...gotta expand my perspectives....

    Sunday, February 07, 2010
    Testing, Testing. Hello , World. Am I On the Air Yet?



    See what happens when I don't write anything for a few days?

    NOTHING!

    ( whoops and throws confetti around.)

    In fact, I think I'd pull a Drew Carey and get a recorder so that you can replay generic posts here, no need for me to show off my creativity and coolness.The staleness of this blog resembles a piece of stale baugette.

    whoohoo, stale baugettes.

    ew.

    God , what is wrong with me?!