to be frank,i have to admit it....I SEE HIM EVERYWHERE.
No matter where i go ,he's always seem to be around.
This is bad,cause it shows and further emphasizes how my hallucinations have gotten out of hand....

well, let's get on to business.
it's the 25th already.only 2 more weeks (i think)before my absolute destruction.the school play ,i mean.
has anyone ever notice how i seem to be growing more serious lately?oops i forgot.i haven't really been serious.

let's see ........um.......

this is ridiculous.....


i'll make a list of the TOP TEN ppl i have no desire to see later in my life.(that is ,if i live that long)
1)Mrs L Tan(english teacher)
2)Mr Boo(my principal)
3)most of the bimbos in beatty.
4)Chia Yao wei
5)Huang Nan Bin
6)in fact ,now that i think abt it,most of the boys in 4e4
7)Winnie Heng
8)Mr Ng T C
9)Michael Leung You Rong
10)everyone that hates me.


right i think that should do it.



this week,i nearly had an ugly confrontation with Kristine and Shalini.
Why?
Well ,on Thursday, Ying Jie and i were at the general office putting the class diary back.As we were doing so,Kristine practically forced her way past me.I ,the blur,(as usual) had no idea what was going on.....so i turn around only to face her.We stared at each other for a few mins before Kristine went,"i'm sorry "in a very insincere tone.


As we left the school for lunch,Ying Je was slightly annoyed.'Wah lau ehh,she act like she boss like that!Did you hear her apology?it was so fake!"

Me:i had no idea she was behind me actually
Y J.:well she should at least apologize sincerely.


as we walked,i voiced out my question:did i do something wrong last time to Kristine?Is that why she hates me so much?

After a few mins of contemplation,yj said no,adding that kristine wasn't nice to her either.We both dropped the subject and happily went for lunch.

On friday,during english class,i asked mrs tan a question regarding homework .after a while ,she told me to check the dictionary.figures she just doesn't know.As i was about to do so,shalini ran ahead of me to grab the dictionary and check it for me.i was slightly pissed but i kept my anger in check.

as we walked to math class,i asked ying jie whether i was wrong to be mad at shalini.

she said."no, you're not wrong to be mad at her."

now ,as i type this,i begin to wonder if it is a result of my teenage misplaced anger that is making me pissed off everyday.