i went through your friendster profile again today, after a month of not seeing it.
seeing your face as it fills the screen, seeing your enjoying you glamourous new life without me being or taking part in any part of it makes me sad.
i miss you, but in both ways, we left each other. we didn;t drift, we left at the same time. i never got to say anything about my feelings and you left cause you wanted to leave. the last time i saw you...( was it when i was sec 4? three years, it has been so long?) you had changed for the better , but i thought i still sensed the same old fren i used to harbour a humongous secret crush on.
why did we both leave at the same time?
i think in a way, i wanted to. i was afraid of being in a committment with you cause you were so nice that it could all be just a dream and i could wake up crying cause the dream would end.
so i refused to get closer to you.
it must have hurt you too. or are you that unforgiving? you saw what was happening and responded the same way i did. with nothing.
you kept silent,
so did i.
i talked about you for the past few days. you remind me of a classmate i have. with you, i could never figure out your emotions or what exactly you were thinking.remember the first song you sang? you always joked that you could have pointed to me if you had knew me earlier. was it really a joke or were you saying something about your feelings?
i would never know, would i?
i just remembered how i would respond to comments like that. with a sacarstic remark. was it cause i was really sacarstic, or just afraid to show my true emotions regarding it?
in ways, i have got you to thank.
without you, i wouldn;t be so fascinated with this world.
without you, i wouldn't be hooked on to music.
without you, i wouldn't be facing the world as i am now.
you taught me that geeky kids always had something going on , no matter what.
your guitar playing, the opera singing,your drawing, the way you followed me to make sure i was alright, the way you closed your eyes on the bus on the way home from a trip...that weirdly solemn look you had...it just made it easier for me to like you.
did i love you then?
maybe i did.
but perhaps i had fallen in love with the guy that used to be you. the guy with the glasses, the guy that was forgetful, that guy that was sweet, the guy that would talk to me for hours on msn.
that guy just isn't you anymore. you've shone better than you ever had, my fren, but your smile is just reserved for all your adoring public now.
where are you?whereru?
it just strikes me that i've looked through your profile searching for something, any mention ...
but i have given up.
i supposed you too have already done so.
seeing your face as it fills the screen, seeing your enjoying you glamourous new life without me being or taking part in any part of it makes me sad.
i miss you, but in both ways, we left each other. we didn;t drift, we left at the same time. i never got to say anything about my feelings and you left cause you wanted to leave. the last time i saw you...( was it when i was sec 4? three years, it has been so long?) you had changed for the better , but i thought i still sensed the same old fren i used to harbour a humongous secret crush on.
why did we both leave at the same time?
i think in a way, i wanted to. i was afraid of being in a committment with you cause you were so nice that it could all be just a dream and i could wake up crying cause the dream would end.
so i refused to get closer to you.
it must have hurt you too. or are you that unforgiving? you saw what was happening and responded the same way i did. with nothing.
you kept silent,
so did i.
i talked about you for the past few days. you remind me of a classmate i have. with you, i could never figure out your emotions or what exactly you were thinking.remember the first song you sang? you always joked that you could have pointed to me if you had knew me earlier. was it really a joke or were you saying something about your feelings?
i would never know, would i?
i just remembered how i would respond to comments like that. with a sacarstic remark. was it cause i was really sacarstic, or just afraid to show my true emotions regarding it?
in ways, i have got you to thank.
without you, i wouldn;t be so fascinated with this world.
without you, i wouldn't be hooked on to music.
without you, i wouldn't be facing the world as i am now.
you taught me that geeky kids always had something going on , no matter what.
your guitar playing, the opera singing,your drawing, the way you followed me to make sure i was alright, the way you closed your eyes on the bus on the way home from a trip...that weirdly solemn look you had...it just made it easier for me to like you.
did i love you then?
maybe i did.
but perhaps i had fallen in love with the guy that used to be you. the guy with the glasses, the guy that was forgetful, that guy that was sweet, the guy that would talk to me for hours on msn.
that guy just isn't you anymore. you've shone better than you ever had, my fren, but your smile is just reserved for all your adoring public now.
where are you?whereru?
it just strikes me that i've looked through your profile searching for something, any mention ...
but i have given up.
i supposed you too have already done so.
