Paranoia; An RH. M Production
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I am : Inane, Insane, Indelicate, In Depression, In Melancholy, In Happiness.....IT'S ALL ABOUT THE I.

Champa Ha, otherwise known as Rhiannon Merlin.
Avid Fan of Hetalia , Yaoi, reading, Prussia and Canada,Music, Monty Python, cool lines and everything that's cold.
Strong believer of Magic and witchcraft, and knows that she can be irritating and insane.
Now, before you get cursed by the Knights who say "Ni", yell that you're pining for the Fjords 100x
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Wishlist eh? I have to do this? Okay... Wants a cool jacket that fits me .
To be favourited as an author on my Fanfic.
New Ipod.
Perfect Fifths by Megan McCafferty
To actually be somewhat sane by the time i reach 50
For the UN to actually do something .
To meet Gilbert and Matthew.


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  • Thank you

    Designer: SPLASH!
    Base code: heroine Resources: 1 | 2

    Tuesday, January 30, 2007

    i haven't been online for days,thanks to this stomach virus. but i have decided not to disappoint my frens by keeping a grudge . so here i am with quotes.From where? some great sage? Nah,more like the teen titans.

    Starfire: Are all schools on your planet this horrible?

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    Beast Boy: And we take him down. Oh, I'll find him! That demented doofus is never hypnotizing me again!
    (A hypnotic screen comes out of the walls and hypnotizes Beast Boy)

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    Starfire: (Puts down a hypnotized Beast Boy) I cannot awaken him. I have tried the tickling, all manners of bodily noises, and the word 'underpants'. I fear that this time his brain is lost forever!
    Raven: Beast boy had a brain?
    Beast Boy: (Wakes up and laughs) Ha ha!! Good one!! (Stops, glares) Dude! That's not funny! I totally have a brain!!! I just don't use it much....

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    Starfire: In such occasion, I believe it is costumary to wear a dead plant? (Places white rose on Robin's tuxedo)

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    Robin: You're getting MARRIED?!
    Raven: Anyone we know?
    Starfire: I... do not know who is to be my groom yet.
    Robin: You're getting MARRIED?! To someone you don't KNOW?!
    Starfire: Yes, and I am happy to be seeing Tamaran again.
    Robin: (Pressed outside Starfire's window, in the airless vacuum of space) But you're getting MARRIED?! (Realizes he can't breathe, coughs, chokes, face turns blue)

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    Beast Boy: See, it all started in 1492 with this tea party, in Boston. King George, or was it King Norman? Anyway, the British were trying to get the colonists to drink all this tea and they were like: Dude! No way! We're sick of nasty old tea and your crummy English muffins! So, they decided Revolution!
    Raven: Where'd you learn history? A cereal box?
    Beast Boy: What's your point?

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    Pelican: Have you seen my hippo? He hides, and I must seek.
    Starfire: I cannot play. Please, do you know a strange man named Control Freak? He is big, not tall and nasty, and known for causing strife. He escaped into the TV -
    Beast Boy: Hey, Star! Run for your life!

    (later)

    (Beast Boy transforms into a hippo and gets launched into the pelican show)
    Pelican: Oh, hippo! Oh, hippo! I have missed you so!

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    Cyborg: What makes you think that you can go into Robin's room, try on his clothes, and use his stuff while he's away?
    Starfire & Beast Boy: Uh...
    Cyborg: Without me!

    Starfire: Robin calling Robin!
    Beast Boy: I'm here, report!
    Starfire: Not you, the other Robin!

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    Starfire: Would you like another slice of pizza, Robin?
    Beast Boy: Thanks, Robin. Do you want another slice, Robin?
    Cyborg: Don't mind if I do!! (Eats the whole pizza)
    Raven: You know what, Robins? This mask actually makes me look... (Blushes) cool.
    (Robin walks in)
    Robin: Hey, pizza!
    (The Titans slink back)
    Robin: You know, Robins, the mask makes ME look cool, too.

    Monday, January 22, 2007

    still me. still lambasting the gov.
    right now in this really weird place where ppl play world of warcraft. heh,to think i wanted to play this game myself.

    maybe i'll play this game when i find a really quiet place. these speakers they have here are really rather scary.

    anyway. today i was supposed to apply and submit my application to the damn bleeping hong kong immigration in wan chai. they told us that we had to sign up at the smart card application centre in causeway bay, one station away. honestly can these ppl pls make sure this place is accessible to the public ? they have this place in a very ulu place of causeway bay. ands causeway bay is considered as the bugis of hong kong.

    the idiots there told me to come tomorrow. at 8.

    in the damn morning cause their walk in quota was full. at 12 in the afternoon????


    i hate the gov.

    Sunday, January 21, 2007

    i love my blog.

    you know why?

    it gives me a chance to lambast the hong kong immigration and customs.

    thanks to them i am on a plane back to hong kong .TODAY.

    Well, on the plus side i'll be back in two weeks.ppl looking for me, leave messages on my blog.

    thanks to the gov., i have to go back to make sure my permanent residency in hk is still safe.

    more later.

    Wednesday, January 17, 2007

    tsubasa

    TV series insert song
    Vocals: FictionJunction KAORI



    far in the light, I can see it
    in every scene of the night
    a tiny feather of love

    I gotta go
    destiny never finds the way for me, my love

    even in the night I see your face, in the dark
    so I never lose my way to you
    I never close my heart
    the light is always there

    time goes by, we can never stay the same
    now we've come so far from love memory
    though your smile has gone, we will never be apart
    in our hearts we are one, for love melody
    the future arrives with your love

    willing to go to the place
    where you never need to cry
    I'll take you there

    willing to find an answer
    in all the winding road we have come through

    in the heat of summer, cold of winter, I'm here
    so you never lose your way to me
    never close your heart
    your light is always here

    time goes by, we can never stay the same
    in the shades of hope, in love memory
    though your smile has gone, we will never be apart
    in our hearts we can hear the love melody
    the future still shines, close to you




    my fave song from my fav manga/anime.

    here's another one.


    Blaze

    TV series opening theme
    Vocals: Kinya

    Composer: NIEVE


    Hatenaki yume motomeru shirube naki sekai de...

    Kasanaru omoi kokoro tsukisasu kodou
    Shizuka ni tsuzuku tamerai mo nai uta
    Tooku sora no kanata kara mazariatta bokura no kage
    Hitsuzen to kimagure no naka shirusareta kioku

    Surechigatta toki no uzu
    Kuchihatetemo kimi no koe wo shinjite

    Hatenaki yume motomeru shirube naki mirai de
    Boku ga hikari nakushitemo itsuka
    kimi ga tomoshite kureta kirameku mune no honoo
    Tsubasa ni kawaru kibou no kakera

    Yamanai ame to yasashiku nureru tsuki
    Kizutsuitemo ii kaze ni yure yuku bojou
    Kurayami mo tsuranuku shisen aoku sunda hitomi no oku
    Zetsubou mo kodoku mo koete kizamareta shirushi

    Yugandeku toki no hazama
    Kawashita kizuna ni kimi wo kanjita

    Hakanaki michi wo tadoru kotae naki sekai de
    Fui ni mayoi tachidomatteru kimi yo
    Mune kiramekasu kibou no asu e
    Hakanaki yume motomeru kotae naki sekai de
    Boku no negai todokeru kagayaku mune no honoo

    Hatenaki yume motomeru shirube naki sekai de
    Boku ga hikari nakushitemo itsuka
    Kimi ga tomoshite kureta kirameku mune no honoo
    Tsubasa ni kawaru kibou no kakera


    translation:
    We're seeking our endless dreams in a world with no guidance...
    With tangled emotions and a heart-piercing beat,
    our ballad continues, quietly and without faltering
    From the other side of the far-off sky, our shadows blur together
    Our memories are chronicled somewhere between whim and inevitability (7)
    Even if everything decays in the whirlpool of time we spent passing each other by,
    I'll believe in your voice

    We're seeking our endless dreams in a future with no guidance
    Even if I lose this light someday
    there will still be the shining blaze you lit in my heart
    We'll turn these fragments of hope into wings
    An unceasing rain and a gently-soaked moon

    I don't care if I get hurt; I just want to move on, blown about by the wind
    A look from your clear, innocent eyes cuts through the darkness
    We'll pass through despair and loneliness and leave our mark behind
    During the time I spent distorting myself to avoid creating ties,
    I felt you there

    We're following a fleeting path in a world with no answers
    When you're suddenly lost and unable to move forward,
    my heart will shine and show the way to a hopeful tomorrow

    We're seeking our fleeting dreams in a world with no answers
    The shining blaze in my heart will convey my wish

    We're seeking our endless dreams in a world with no guidance
    Even if I lose this light someday
    there will still be the shining blaze you lit in my heart
    We'll turn these fragments of hope into wings




    love these two songs. now if only i can get them to be on this blog.

    Sunday, January 14, 2007

    great. just great.

    as though i wasn't feeling bad enough.

    it seems as though everyone who has graduated from Singapore International School has become more shinier and more beautiful.

    i'm not jealous abt the beautiful part.

    maybe i am.

    i dunno.

    it's just that.....everyone else seem to have become more happier.their lives seem to have been more enriched. those ppl with their international school background seem to have become part of the stars above the sky which seems impossible to reach.

    while i seem to have sunk deeper into the recesses below. heaven seems to have accpeted them. hell just seems welcoming more and more every day.

    angeline, sweet kid ,had been to the phillipines and will come back to singapore to finish her studies,then most probably proceed to the us.

    all the others....haha....i feel more depressed. the ppl who graduated have become more happier with their lives and thus accepted their style.

    me? i reject all change. i refused to become more beautiful. i REFUSED. why did i refuse?

    i refused to become more into the glittering ppl. i refused to have an expensive background.

    i seemed to have refused more than half my life and have instead paid back in nth but unhappiness and dissatisfaction.

    if i had not rejected change, would i have become one of them?

    if i went to a better school instead of Beatty, would i have adopted this style that leads no where?i'm stuck btw going forward in my current state and metamorphasizing ,once again ,to become something i have never once wanted to be.

    is that the reason why i scared my face?

    great gods of olympus, where is my sign?

    i was a quiet kid , never really getting noticed. then i changed, becoming too noticeable. now i am back to square one. except this time, i want to be respected as well as noticed. i wanted to be famous in the fact that ppl would know me and respected me .

    instead,i got too far. i lost my faith in myself. everyday i pass ppl who look at me with almost no respect. i am the jester, the clown, the nonsensical person who knows nth of seriousness.

    the unhappy part , however,faces both jester and writer. the jester sees her own foolishness and weeps. the writer, who has already seen both coming, weeps for the jester.

    who am i?

    am i indeed ,like every other teen (like what mr quek said) searching for my identity?

    i search for answers. i pick up none at every turn.

    Thursday, January 11, 2007

    i keep my promises: here is my first fan fic for harry potter! i was angling for a humourous story but i like this too. Meet: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (imagined version) .Pls comment!


    Sadness was of no stranger to some people. Some, like Cassiopeia Lee was acquainted with it a little too often.

    As she walked through the dark alleys of Rhinestone Crescent, she marveled, once more, how her old friend could live in such a place. Rats were everywhere in the trash, which seemed to spread everywhere. She shivered slightly and hugged herself as she made her way towards the number of doors which made up the wall.

    Hesitating, she finally picked a door and felt the strangely familiar doorknob under her hands. With the other hand, she knocked seven times.

    The door opened slightly. The moonbeam fell on the face of a man who looked to have grown old at a young age. His face was lined with fatigue and his brown hair was streaked liberally with grey, but his eyes were still the same, wise and the light he used to have in his eyes.

    He squinted at her, trying to make out of her features under the hood that covered her face.

    “If I were to say, Remus," Cassiopeia said softly," that I traveled the world for knowledge of myself...."

    “Knowledge of self came from within a person's heart." the man replied, slowly, not believing it was indeed who she was.

    To affirm her identity, she removed the hood of the cloak. The light from the young man's eyes slowly came to life. "It's good to see you again, Cassie.'

    "Truly, it has been long." Cassie murmured. Lupin opened the door wider to let her in. Closing the door after her, he switched on the lights of his muggle home.

    The light fell on the woman and showed her face. A pale face settled on a thin long neck which set off her dark purple eyes dramatically and her black hair was bound into a soft bun and the nape of her neck. A midnight blue robe was her only garment, plain raiment on one so fair. Her face was contorted into a frown and worry as she surveyed the area. Neat though it was, it still could not conceal the shabbiness of the walls.

    "How are you, Remus?" she inquired, turning towards him.

    Understanding the real question behind the questioning look in her eyes, Lupin smiled wanly, helping her with her cloak. “I’ve been in worse places.” He then directed the woman into a patched chair.

    Cassie leaned forward in her chair, her eyes sad and troubled. Lupin did not miss this and asked,” Why are you here, Cass? I would have thought that’ you’ll rather stay at Molly’s place?’

    ‘Molly hasn’t found out about that, yet.” Cassie grinned, the trace of sadness still not leaving her lips. “I was planning on surprising her. Then I heard young Bill was to be married, and my godsons were doing so well at the joke shop. I wanted to see her and congratulate her .”

    Lupin smiled and got up to make tea for the both of them.”Molly would definitely be surprised. ”

    Cassie smiled for the first time, lighting up her attractive face. “Dear Molly.”

    Lupin walked back to her to pass her the steaming cup of tea. She received it with both hands, her pale slender fingers wrapped around the cup.

    Lupin continued to watch her face. Quietly he asked her,”What’s the other reason?’

    Cassie stiffened slightly, her hands almost trembling over her cup.

    “What other reason will I have to come back, Remus?” she said, almost sobbing. “Dumbledore’s dead and I have come back to pay my respects!”

    “What about Harry then?”

    She flinched, slightly. Looking up at him, purple eyes on his blue, she asked him,”How?”

    “Well, we were the gang, and we all loved Harry to bits.” Lupin said.” There were dark times where we all had to run from Lord Voldemort, but we all were so protective over him. Those were the days huh?”

    Looking down again, she asked, “How is he?”

    He said,” Well, but not too happy. You heard how Dumbledore….”he trailed off, not able to find the words to say. He was still coping with it, but you could still hear the pain in his voice.

    “Damn Serverus Snape.” She growled, fire burning in her almond shaped eyes. “He always felt too oily to me. First James and Lily, then he caused Sirius’s death and now….Dumbledore! If I ever see him again…I swear “

    “Yes we all want to kill Snape.” Lupin muttered, his face turning dark.

    “Drat Snivellus.” Cassie snarled. “James had a point in the past. Never trust Snape.”

    “Remus, is there anything wrong?” A young voice reverberated through the room.

    Cassie turned towards Lupin , a wry smile setting her eyes to dancing amusement. ”Any female I should know about, Moony dear?”

    Lupin looked at her.

    A figure entered the room, her pink hair tousled, and her heart-shaped face puffy with sleep. She was noticeably younger than Lupin and also, Cassie noticed, familiar in a way. She pondered, scrutinizing her; while the younger woman, who just noticed her, was studying her as well, curious about the newcomer.

    Then something clicked.” Nymphadora, it’s good to see you!”

    ‘Don’t call me Nymphadora, its Tonks...Cassie!” The younger woman finally recognized her and embraced her.

    “What are you doing here?”

    “What are you doing here?” Cassie asked.

    Tonks began stammering and blushing, unusual for a girl so confident. Lupin too was blushing.

    ‘I know the Weasleys so I thought I’ll help out at Bill’s wedding. Fred and George are my godsons too.”

    “Well, we never would have guessed.”Tonks declared. “We’re going there tomorrow to help! I know, Why don’t she spend the night here tonight and later she can come with us!”

    Cassie protested,” But my luggage…”

    “Where is it?’ Lupin asked.

    “The Leaky Cauldron.”

    ” I know, she can go back to the Leaky Cauldron and meet us back here tomorrow.” Tonks grinned. “How does that sound?”

    ‘Wonderful. “Cassie said, smiling again, ‘I’ll see you tomorrow then.”



    That's the end of my first chapter! pls review on both blog and the story on www.fanfiction.mugglenet.com .check for general fics.

    Wednesday, January 10, 2007

    yesterday was enlightening. the arena was fantastic but i still think raffles should have won. loyang's second speaker was too......out of mind. i mean ,it's not wrong to spice up a speech ,but i'll leave my childhood out of it.


    lets give a nice commentary of the entire show.

    beginning of the show. so far so good. seems interesting but i disagree with having a rebuttal bank of 1:30 min. i mean that ammount of time per team????? that's too short!

    THE MOTION: HEY GOOD LOOKING, YOU'RE A WINNER! GOOD LOOKS TRIUMPH OVER EFFORT.

    (at this point ,i have admittedly and toatlly gone over to the prop side. it can be seen from magazines that this motion is already in motion and though i hate this motion and disagree with it ,IT'S TRUE!)

    First round :

    Prop: Loyang
    Opp: Raffles

    First speaker of prop was good and i could almost see her in a rap battle and actually win due to her fierceness and in your face kinda style. points off for forgetting to press the button to start a rebuttal during first opp speech.First opp was more smooth but not as good.


    Second round:

    prop: pls note when choosing your speakers , choose them by their passion, but also by their impartiallity and coolness. second prop was too dramatic , using and exaggerating gestures ,pronouncing her words with expressions.

    (at this point ,let me point out that viha and i were sms-ing frevently during the show. viha commented that crazy girl was in the team and beatty creamed loyang in the prelim round. i comment that my cousins say that crazy girl is like me.she agrees with my cousin and we spend the rest of the round, arguing whether i am like her or not)

    opp speaker: kept his cool when crazy girl was gesturing wildly in his face, though he was much smaller than crazy girl. sacarstic sometimes .when crazy girl uses personal experiences in the middle of the speech( not advisable !)and dramatics and said "my mummy told me when i was a baby that inner beauty is better than outer beauty." he goes, in all seriousness "is your mummy reliable?"

    Rebuttal round: fire ,fire ,fire!!!!!

    third round: can't remember much of this . both were okay but the girl did better.


    results: raffles lost by two damn points so loyang got to semi finals but still there's a wildcard round so raffles could come back.

    disappointed me went screaming around the house and crying into the toilet.
    viha consoles me that since we beat loyang in the prelim and raffles lost to loyang, technically we are better than raffles. cheered me up as the guy who was at graduation had that line abt raffles and beatty ."we either beat you or beat you up.there're no two ways abt it. sometimes we can even do both." starts laughing hysterically. cousins reach for the phone and mins later, guys in uniforms come in and carry a strait jacketed champa out of the house.

    actually it was the mcdonald delivery guy with our food.

    why can't my life be like a sitcom?

    Tuesday, January 09, 2007

    i am a fan of pop culture . i should know better ,but i am. it's everywhere in our lives . everyday we go out , we see adverts endorsed by pop culture. what are teen magazines sometimes based on? pop culture . what sometimes make us buy a product or watch a movie? pop culture . so today , i am going to blog abt top ten ppl that i am a fan of.




    who doesn't like oprah? she's the most influential person in the world who does things for the benefit of the ppl. there's was once she surprised an audience of hurricane katrina heroes with her annual oprah's favorite things ,where she introduces her fav things and gives them out for free too. they aren't cheap too. ipod videos, top of the line cookies, faux cashmere bathing robes ,watches from a line which madonna herself gave to her , lap tops computers!the list goes on and on.
    she stands up for herself too as can be seen from the time she was denied entry into hermes in france. no.1 in my top 10 list.





    tyra banks .no 2 in my list. just like a younger version of oprah talkshow wise.understands somehow abt how it felt to feel ugly.i love this woman to death . maybe it's because of the eyes.



    david letterman's no 3.ppl of singapore won't know him, but i watch him every chance i got from my hols in hk.he's crazy , quirky , silly and def . funny. his talkshow...hmm... think female ellen degeneres ,except more fun, more craziness and no dancing. he likes to make fun of george w bush . there was once when a guest (richard simmons) came onto the show wearing nth but shorts and a turkey costume.
    he tried to do a lap dance on david letterman, he on the other hand pushed him away and chased him off the set using a fire extinguisher. my dad and i used to watch him together in hk and mom would often complain abt the uselessness of the show. den again, dad didn't like mr bean either and mom and i laughed ourselves silly over every episode.




    avril lavigne. my fav singer cause of her pure voice and rock hard attitude, i first heard her sing skater boy and i was hooked , this causing a lot of sleepless nights for my elder cousins who could not stand the younger kids ,including me, singing to the easy to remember lyrics. when i saw her pic i was disappointed. i expected her to have short hair.her first cd was the first cd i ever bought.






    i remembered seeing an advert of her show and my first thought was, why is she dancing on a taxi , in a raincoat on a rainy day ? then after doing research on her , i found out abt her gay confession but she still had the courage to go on on her show biz business. i respect for her continually grows and she is quite goofy but no david letterman.


    i would write the next five ,but i wanna watch phua chu kang. i'll talk more next time.

    Monday, January 08, 2007

    i almost killed myself trying to get to post this today. no one told me that i had to use my e-mail to do this.sometimes i wonder if it was beneficial for me to switch to the new beta free account. Whats the diff man?

    ah well.

    went back to school today with viha and ying jie. quite an interesting trip.
    turns out if we wanna enter the school we had to be dressed in school uniform. which was stupid technically but reasonable. viha and i were respectively wearing eldds and class t shirt respectively with jeans .big mistake.there was two other guys wearing school shirts with jeans too.

    anyway after getting a huge ticking off from singh( later i commented maybe he was pms -ing) we went in and i had a huge really bimbotic girly moment where i saw may may and did this jumping up and down motion.i miss that kid.i'ld rather nave a younger sis than bro and i take her as my little sis. but unlike me, she puts too much pressure on herself for studies. i worry bout that kid. she scares me. i know she mutilates herself sometimes with the razor cause she thinks it looks pretty on the skin but still ....theres that fine line between there and slitting of wrists.

    anyway we have a huge girly moment and i saw mr quek too.being the frenly guy he his, he always say my name first.i like this guy but sometimes i dunno if he is crazy or just plain genius.
    i like this teacher so i'll say both. he likes to talk abt loads of subjects.

    we proceed up to the music room where eldds usually takes place .

    missing. pitch black. no signs of life.

    again i wonder if a conspiracy occured which killed off all eldds members, having seen no signs of life in the eldds blog or any members i messaged except xinhui, clarence and sydney.

    den we checked the ava room ,den the hall.

    finally we find all of them in the library.

    bleah.

    i won't bore you with details abt the meeting but i got to see a lot of changes.
    it was unusual seeing eddie wearing long pants for once but it just reminded me i was getting older, wiser , more grumpy and unhappy with myself.

    meanwhile i met up with my evil pandawan rebecca who has a huge talent for art. she was always sketching characters from anime and creating her own heroes every i see her.and since i was her dark lord, cause lord vader is my father, we have a ritual we go through .she salutes me and bows (i think) and i bless her. she told me she had graduated from normal acad to express and i was very proud of her. she's a good kid but often gets sick and also a good singer -she sang the alicia keyes song in a new beginning last year ,despite stage fright .i am soooooo proud of her!!!!!!!!

    i dunno what happened to ms huang though, she's missing. ms karen james is taking over her.


    i worry too much sometimes.
    anyway ,it was a good trip back.

    Saturday, January 06, 2007

    You know how open houses are.
    they are sometimes nauseating ,especially when all the ppl really want to do is to slink off quietly ,wander around,get lost , and maybe get found 10 days later surviving on grass....just like a goat.

    but yesterday's open house......woah.....

    okay the main reason why we went to singapore poly's oh was because we as concerned o level pupils who care abt our future and stuff wanna see the place and see if it suits your temperament.

    but viha and i also wanted to pay homage to the great gods....the ones that sees as we are and provide us with what we want just as we request with a sacrifice. like athena and artemis, the greek goddesses ......

    okay we paid homage to the sandwich,maggie mee and ice cream vending machines.

    but it was still fun!

    the 5 of us (parri,viha,rekha,y j and i ) all bowed and stared in awe at the great colour visages that could only be provided by the superior beings enlightened......

    den we went for the school of business tour.
    i still dunno why.
    i think it was because i was surprising accomadating on that day.

    i think it was the milo truck....

    i dun plan to go for business. there was once in sec4 when during self study viha tried to explain poa to me.

    "So in which case , salary is an expense."
    "wait a min., you get money and it's an expense?"
    "Erm....company expense..."

    after that i was thinking....salary is where u get your revenue right?
    i spoke the next sentence out loud.
    "so revenue is an EXPENSE!"

    "................"
    "BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!"




    PLS SLAP ME.....

    anyway, we got to the place and it turns out the diploma of media and communications is there too so i was not too bored.but why is it combined with business???????????????

    anyway, i forgot to mention, wisdom came with us too. wisdom is this kid i knew from RED camp. he reminds me of marco, but much more outgoing. dun tell anyone ,but i am trying to get him and florence together.he likes her. and sorry for sounding impersonal, but i thought, since there would be no way of first hand experience, it will be great to have experiments instead!

    ANYWAY.........

    we get to the place and we went thru this waiting process cause the other group were not finished yet. we all took a personality test and guess what? there's a good chance i could be politician or a radio talk show host .

    ying jie got a nurse and viha got dancer!!!!!
    both rekha and parri got something like a consultant.

    yj thinks if i were a politician or worse a PRIME MINSITER, the country would go corrupt.

    i dun think so. i just think it'll be destroyed.

    finnaly we got to the business and finance course but for some reason the guy talking to us kept looking at me. later all four others commented on the same thing.


    i think i know the answer .i was sitting in front and i had this really wide eyed blinking look cause the guy kept moving and using gestures so much ,i thought he was going to burst into song and start dancing a la Broadway.....tap dancing will suit the guy, he kept jumping around......

    anyway i'll part with this song from my chemical romance.i bought their recent cd and i thought most of the songs were meaningful cause they talk about dying and the journey it takes to go to .......somewhere....i want this to play at my funeral, i dun care if it is rock and i could very well die when i am 70 years old or something.

    there's something in the air that suggests me dying early.i just know it.

    "Dead!"

    Yeah!

    And if your heart stops beating
    I'll be here wondering
    Did you get what you deserve?
    The ending of your life
    And if you get to heaven
    I'll be here waiting, babe
    Did you get what you deserve?
    The end, and if your life won't wait
    Then your heart can't take this

    Have you heard the news that you're dead?
    No one ever had much nice to say
    I think they never liked you anyway
    Oh take me from the hospital bed
    Wouldn't it be grand? It ain't exactly what you planned.
    And wouldn't it be great If we were dead?
    Ohh dead.

    Tongue-tied and oh so squeamish
    You never fell in love
    Did you get what you deserve?
    The ending of your life
    And if you* get to heaven
    I'll be here waiting, babe
    Did you get what you deserve?
    The end, and if your life won't wait
    Then your heart can't take this

    Have you heard the news that you're dead?
    No one ever had much nice to say
    I think they never liked you anyway
    Oh take me from the hospital bed
    Wouldn't it be grand to take a pistol by the hand?
    And wouldn't it be great if we were dead?

    And in my honest observation
    During this operation
    Found a complication in your heart
    So long, 'Cause now you've got (now you've got)
    Maybe just two weeks to live
    Is that the most the both of you can give?

    One, two, one two three four!

    LA LA LA LA LA!
    LA LA LA LA LA LA!
    LA LA LA LA LA LA LA!
    Well come on,
    LA LA LA LA LA!
    LA LA LA LA LA LA!
    LA LA LA LA LA LA LA!
    Oh motherfucker,

    If life ain't just a joke (LA LA LA LA LA!)
    Then why are we laughing? (LA LA LA LA LA LA!)
    If life ain't just a joke (LA LA LA LA LA LA LA!)
    Then why are we laughing?
    If life ain't just a joke (LA LA LA LA LA!)
    Then why are we laughing? (LA LA LA LA LA LA!)
    If life ain't just a joke (LA LA LA LA LA LA LA!)
    Then why am I dead?
    DEAD!

    [*Note: CD cover says "we" here, but in the song it's clearly said "you"]

    Thursday, January 04, 2007



    tell me abt cats.i like them.

    Tuesday, January 02, 2007

    Champa H. -she touches on many topics of which her blog has the paradoxical governing theme of ‘love-hate’.

    Description above is from logen's new fren's list on his blog which has been redirected from the old one.i kinda like it.I'll inscribe it on my ash urn." she always loved and hated hereself".Remind me never to be buried underground. one of my fears include a fear of maggots crawling all around me. for that matter, pls do not hang out at a deserted forest cause i was bored.

    this should be time where i stop watching so much c.s.i. but i like it too much.

    truly it is a time of changes.

    New year resolutions 2007:

    1:stop being so sensitive.life does not revolve around u .

    2.find a way to like myself. i sometimes do ,i sometimes don't

    3.visit school on special occasions.Do not find excuses to avoid it.

    4. Never fall in debt.

    5. learn french. i like the feel of the language.

    6. check myself into imh for split personality disorder.

    7. find the meaning of life.

    8.find out at the same time if life likes me.

    9. philospherize my way into life.

    10. never make any more new years resloutions

    what's with the super white horse not existing?